#lostpuppyiki

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So for Halloween/November 1st I was at a friend’s party and the power went out, so Nov. 1 6:15 AM I wake up and I make sure another person that’s over is awake, so I end up zonking back out and ta-daaaaa dreams! AGAIN.

It was another high school setting, which definitely took place during my junior year but for some reason it took place in front of the gymnasium on my middle school campus? So it’s like...an outdoor literature class inside of a greenhouse (kinda resembled the butterfly enclosure at the Memphis Zoo idek man), and Tory/I was sitting on the third row, and saw Kira sit in the front. Well, about to. She looked back as if teasing Tory, and moved back another row. Theeeen looked back again, a small smile on her face. Tory was just “Stop teasing me, Kiraaaaa!” with a whine. And in the end she came to sit by him.

Now, the funny part about this is that I hadn’t had a dream about aforementioned person in awhile, but it’s good forewarning because the next day I went to Starbucks and got to chat awhile hurray! Wednesday got to see him too, but I avoided going this morning because I don’t want to look like more of a stalker than I unintentionally am (because I always drive by his workplace wheneever I go to school).

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Another recurring dream… (Epi-Seikaku view even though it totally used real selves)

A high school setting, in the gym where a small assembly is to be held, and students are pretty random at choice Tory recognizes three people, and YEP HERE COMES KIRA AGAIN and she sees Tory and sits next to him to start conversing (on Tory’s other side, Lisa is nudging Tory to tease him about his luck). One of their former bandmates sits on Kira’s other side and she remarks about Kira’s hairstyle because the last time she saw, Kira’s hair was pretty short and it was homecoming (which Tory exclaimed he invited Kira to come see), and at this point Tory’s just acting pretty jealous (keep in mind that in the actual dream, it wasn’t the genderbends so ‘Kira’ was between two girls so naturally that would set off my jealousy, haha…) Tory literally gets on Tumblr on his phone, types “ANDJSKTH3KSNFJWJDBZKWNDJ” or something, and turns it away slightly and tags it with a certain tag I’m using down here LOL One of the assembly crew comes and says that they were supposed to sit next to people they didn’t know, so some people move–including Kira, and Tory slinks down in his seat and looks so ridiculously sad, and perks up again, turning head to the side and hiding a pout when Kira comes back to sit by him and ruffles his hair (“I’m not a kid, Kira!!”)

Maybe I’ll drop by Starbucks later—-DAMMIT MY SISTER IS BORROWING MY CAR RIGHT NOW

The timeline is so screwed up LOL That particular homecoming didn’t happen until after Kira graduated, yet here’s high school Also apparently Tory/I had a look on my face that resembled a kicked puppy so that's what brought Kira back I am dumb

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And of course before I go to bed I’m reeling with thoughts of him because of text sooooo YEP DREAMS

It was silly though, lots of shenanigans I could very much throw into Epi-Seikaku~

So I’ll just reference with Tory and Kira now Band things, but somehow Kira was very forward and more teasing, and while Tory’s feelings are obvious and he’s already been turned down at this point (not putting that in ES), he’s still open with her but also still somewhat shy, and he knows one of her weaknesses is being tickled muahaha so she was going to mock-blackmail Tory about something he said and he was all =3= *tickles* and she stopped ALSO LOTS OF ACCIDENTAL CUDDLES AND TOUCHING LIKE ARGH Like the blackmail thing, Kira had a pair of headphones and was gonna play a song that Tory sang and Tory was all NOOOO and pinned her to the floor not caring how awkward it looked (Because I’m used to such scenes, being a massive pervert and all) Also she would look into his eyes because HIS WEAKNESS ARE GORGEOUS EYES and hers are green which is his favorite color too so DOUBLE WEAKNESS Also yes lots of cuddles were given ;///; I want cuddles and laying head on shoulders and hugs andndkfjdkakdmfkdk

Aw man now I’m just remembering everything in which it was him and I xD;;; Everything was so silly and fun and kinda bittersweet XP

WAIT I JUST REALIZED THAT THIS IS ACTUALLY STILL IN-CHARACTER IF I CONSIDER IT EPI-SEIKAKU AND NOT REAL LIFE BECAUSE OF 'SEIKAKU'

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HIS BIRTHDAY WAS ON THE 5TH I THOUGHT IT WAS THE 19TH FOR THE LONGEST TIME QAQ

Omfg also He looks more and more like Raeger from SoS because of coincidental hairstyle today FFFF------

Why do video game boys haunt me LOL (also the cute ones >3>;;; )

Dammit, I’ve fallen for him all over again XD;;; 

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Ah, you’re honest and kind as always,

My feelings didn’t go unnoticed.

Early summer air betrays the numb inside

But I guess I had to put on a brave face:

A mask for these tears because of time.

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This is harder than I thought .///. Also harder when customers behind me Eye contact messes my thought process up

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I’m gonna do it if he’s there today, if there’s eye contact again, I’m gonna find a way to get my point across >A<!!!

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my weekly love horoscope looks terrible this week =~=

(And this Saturday is 6 years since I outright confessed my feelings asdjfkl)