#love undefined

[lapumpkinmusic]

[brownthoughtsrainbowperception]

What does love see in me to spurn me in ways golden to oil my thoughts brash to leave all that I am to be ravaged upon rocks as the seas come for me within my dwindling peace

I loved from the beginning to some end just to pronounce the word and begin again

My heart spins deeper with every new revolution

And do I mend a soul too old to remember the hurt of the spoiled and the devastation reeked upon soil beholden to the golden rays of my last blissful days

Love takes hold of me to lead me through distance trees swaying before the last remark and my face just got hot as I moistened the time so it slipped seamlessly into the vine of the divine so that the bloom has room to be true as it takes root to bask within it's own hue

What is due

This time I was wise and the milk of lip stiff never rested upon my willow wisp

Still its mark is there within long silken hairs begging to be curled feeling absurd

As juices flow from trees overloaded

And if my bloom was misconstrued within actions due how did love settle through to become new

[exquisitliltart]

Author interview with hummingbirdswords

An interview with @hummingbirdswords on "Love Undefined"

What inspired your Supernova story?

As is the case with a lot of my writing, the core idea of this fic came to me while listening to music. 'Extraordinary' by Idina Menzel (give it a listen!) was a huge inspiration. I didn't even think I would be able to participate because it was two days before first drafts were due and I'd started many ideas, but nothing was working. Then, Extraordinary came on and I spent ten hours talking out ideas with Kez because my brain was basically like !!!!! and there were just so many ideas coming to me. And then, boom! A lack of fics that I could relate to (the way relationships work, identity, labeling...) also inspired me to write this.

They say if you want to see it, write it, so I did. Plus, I know that if I felt that way, there had to be others who also felt they couldn't exactly relate to what has been labeled as the norm by many. So I wanted to put something a bit different out there. Writing the fic took about six weeks if I don't count the time I wasn't writing during the eight week period from start to finish. It felt like much longer, but that was probably because the story kept going in the wrong direction and not following the plan I had created. In the end, it was even better than what I was planning and gave more people something they could connect and relate to than I was expecting. Every long writing session full of me complaining was totally worth it because of that.

Tell us about your writing history for fandom/general, and have you participated in SQ big bang or writing challenges prior?

I've been writing fic for about five years now. It started out as a way to help me improve my writing and keep myself entertained after I had graduated high school and was kind of in this place where life was really complicated. Somewhere along the way, it became such a big part of who I am and it's helped me grow as both a writer and a person. This was my first challenge like this. I'm not usually the best with deadlines. (did I mention I started writing Love Undefined the day BEFORE first drafts were due? because, yeah, that's the best time to start writing something you need to submit.) The fact that I'm not good with deadlines usually makes participating in things like this impossible. I've attempted before in another fandom, but this was my first time actually sticking to it and finishing.

What is an interesting fact about you personally or related to your writing process?

Interesting fact? Are there even any of those about me? Well... I record myself talking when I'm stuck and can't figure out how to write the words I want to say. So, basically, I just talk about what's happened and what I would like to include, talk through scenes. I usually have trouble with dialogue, but that helps a bit. Then, I'll transcribe the parts that are useful and write around them.

What other stories have you written?

All of my SQ fics can be found under hummingbirdswords on AO3. This is probably my favorite I've written for Swan Queen. A Place to Belong comes pretty close, though. I enjoyed writing that one quite a lot.

What is your favorite type of fanfiction?

My favorite type of fanfic... I enjoy a story with a healthy relationship that has a good plot and doesn't rush into things. I enjoy a good balance of fluff and angst, but not an overwhelming amount of either. Also, good kink! If the kink is well written and there's an actual story surrounding it (not a PWP), then I am so there for it!

Is there anything else you'd like people to know about you?

[lapumpkinmusic]

la pumpkin - love_undefined

[theforgottenchild]

What is love? hmmpp... 

[nighthalfopen]

Eyes Won't Close

Bottles in the gutter and rain-webbed windows  And eyes that won't close. Tens of hundreds of nights with rain and sirens And one flat pillow, And eyes that won't close. Coffee on 2pm mornings, so near peace, And night comes on slow, And eyes won't stay closed. Brandy in the cold,  Warm in the raw way Missing something feels almost holy sometimes. Love undefined buried years behind young eyes That still refuse to close.

-A.H.

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