Discover Top Posts Tagged with #loveforevercole

May the Force of Everything Right and Fucked Up in This World Be With You (And Also With You)

I think of you in drawn out math equations.

That’s a lie.

I think of you in simple numbers because- let’s be real- I passed Junior Year math with a sixty-eight.

I suppose I love you in the way I love math

I fumble to add or divide

but the concepts (oh the Concepts! two plus two doesn’t actually equal four?!)

I starve for them,

these ideas that the thing that I can’t do isn’t actually being done right when understood at a scholarly level.

THIS is how I love you-

But you get A’s in math and avoided number theory

(I know because I longed for the day you could come home and pillow talk with me about how two plus two and four didn’t truly belong together)

I suppose the same way we didn’t belong together…

Instead, it has been years since we’ve lived in the same town

and I still keep our rock near my window and in thinking of this my heart sinks because

oh–

…Two plus Two…

and 12:34, the time on the clock when I light another cigarette and curse myself for cursing my sleeping nights and how will I ever read 90+ suggested readings? and Email my new professor and still read my books and finish those documentaries and pay my bills and GOD DAMNIT I still write about you and math in purple ink.

We are Two plus Two.

just like you love Pascal the Mathematician

and I love Pascal Le Penseur

and that book is gone and my favorite word in all of the English language is AND

But I’m writing, so it’s a start…

And you graduate soon and don’t speak to me, even though every day YOU still SPEAK to me.

Two galaxies and Four Lifetimes later.

#poetry #loveforevercole #writtenword #personal #mathematics #love letters #writing #life #pascal #pensees #galaxies #life+times #poetryriot