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[anewdivinity]

I love having a crush! Just constantly feeling excited and embarrassed. "wow you have a lot of energy today" "thanks, yeah, i'm a moron and my brain is in overdrive."

[chinamiloves-blog]

From Lovers to Friends

When we first started out, we both agreed for this to be temporary. And it worked out well. We both got what we wanted. But did we? I never really asked what he got out of it other than the obvious and I never really dared to open up what I enjoyed most being with him. It definitely wasn’t the sex, and the sex being the best I’ve ever had, only came second to what kept me coming back for more. 

I feel guilty now for withholding how I really felt. Even though he knew I liked him, I convinced him this was a good idea and I promised him I wouldn’t go all cray after some time and start demanding a relationship. So I didn’t share my small upsets and dealt with them by myself. I didn’t tell him how much I enjoyed his stories, his childhood mischief, his early kook days, his hilarious jokes and his crazy sometimes nonsense often times creative ideas.

I was afraid to tell him how much more I’ve grown to like him possibly even how I’ve started to love him. There we’re times I really couldn’t contain myself and I’d share how much I care for him and appreciate him as a person and I am thankful for the time he spends with me. I don’t regret that. I just wish I could muster up all my courage and share with him the contribution he was to me but I wouldn’t know how to do that without freaking him out. The very hint of love or any other intense emotion I can already imagine him flinching.

I wasn’t able to make him open up to me. I wasn’t able to get connected to his feelings. Probably because I held myself back from opening up as well. That would’ve been the only chance.

But this is all in the past now and it’s pointless. Now it’s time to learn how to make a friendship work when you once we’re intimate lovers. It will definitely tricky but I think it’s workable when both of you value your friendship more than your desires. Yes, he was a great guy and I thought we we’re a perfect match. But just because we were compatible in so many ways doesn’t mean we we’re destined lovers. Maybe being true friends is what’s perfect for us.

I’m excited to find out!

[krissentita]

From Stone cold heart to bliss (long personal story)

I can’t understand myself anymore. Those 8 years we’ve been together, I throw it all away. Yes, I ended my 8 year plus can’t-count-months anymore. And I don’t care. I don’t know when did I stop caring.

Those 8 years, I started to loved you since I was 16 years old. I was head over heels in loved with you. I even pity myself because you always took me for granted that time. It even come to my mind I’ll choose you against my family if you wanted me to. Because I’m still finishing up nursing degree that time and my sister found out about our relationship and threatened me if we don’t end it. So we choose to hide it and keeping it strong. We even plan for marriage that time. our family is a devotee Christian and you come from a royal Muslim family. Yes, a real troublesome if we’ve been found out by our families.

I can’t even believe that my love for you, can expire. Yes. My heart died that time. Emotionally drop dead. It started when you ignore my texts, ignore my calls(we are in a long distance relationship). In short you stop caring and we ended. I cried every night in those times that you have ignored me. Praying to God to end the love I felt for you. After a year you come back again. You explain yourself that you’ve gone through an organ transplant operation that’s why you hide it from me thinking it might end your life and you don’t want me to suffer seeing you died. Of course i still love you that time so I tried ‘us’ once more. Because we really do love each other.

Nursing licensure exam was fast approaching that time. When you drop the bomb. Yes, a bomb of your enfidelity. I was still thankful because you never hide secrets from me. Even that. I burst to tears. My heart was shattered. Pile of mistrust upon mistrust of words. Your still forgiven by me.I pass the board exam. I’m ambitious you know that.

Months and years pass our fragile relationship goes on.. I don’t know why I still cling to ‘us’. It might be because I still love you but not like those times when I was still 16 or might be we became a habit? Of course 8 years is not easy. It’s like I’m fed up. I’m fed up because you done it again just recently and I don’t even cry, I don’t even feel anything when you said it all. Yes, Im numb.

You even cried when you shared your enfidelity. I don’t know why? I should be the one to cry. Isn’t it funny? Now your like a silly lil kid crying, like your lollipop was snatch away from you. But the hard thing is: it’s hard for me to admit to you that I don’t love you anymore. I don’t care about your enfidelity. I don’t care about us anymore. But I still care about you. I love you now as a friend.

I want us to end as friends. I know it’s hard. But someday we will. Both of us still cares. And I was happy we’ll end up this way. You aim for a law degree and I’m an aspiring doctor to be. I hope we both will succeed.

[heartsrevltn]

Friday morning 3:19 am

Somehow along the way we forgot the little things. Do you remember the day we were heading to Disney? Nothing went right! We couldn’t get your ticket on time and it was already late in the afternoon, We drove for hours and ended up having dinner at an Italian restaurant. We talked about everything and that was when things began to get a little better that year, It wasn’t until early July that we began to think about marriage. But as the months passed we argued a lot more than usual, I promise I tried to change. I was more understanding and loving. I quit all my bluffing and I was sincere. I truly loved you every night I said it. & now here we are kind of in the same place we’ve already stood up in several times. & I ache for you. I’m a strong believer that those who are meant to be will eventually find a way back to one another. I cant wait to see you. most of all I can’t wait to fall in love all over again. only god knows what awaits for one another, We have now set our priorities straight and I can’t wait to see how much you’ll grow. Always so clever & hard working. I love you tonight like i have for the last years of my Humphrey.

[intricatenonsense-blog-blog]

Imagine, sa dinami-dami ng pinagdaanan natin; sa lahat ng sinakripisyo at pinagsamahan natin, sa hinaba haba ng paghahabulan natin sa isa't isa, ngayon lang natin napatunayan..

na we're never meant to be.

:) at least diba? 

who could have imagined na magiging close pa rin tayo ng ganito? 

[cottoncandy03-blog]

Even if our relationship did end in a bad way, kasi nga we're both young pa non. We still manage to be good friends until now. Thanks for visiting me last Christmas Jay! :)) #instadaily #instaphoto #photooftheday #igers #igersphilippines #loverstofriends #exboyfriend #firstboyfriend #4thyearhighschool #june102003 #christmas #withfamily #drinkingsession #photogrid #nofilter # happy #2012pic