Mar 23, 2025
I wish I could relate to Navidson but I can’t which makes me angry so I get pissed off at him instead.
#I’m in the appendix sections now. I kind of wish that book could go on for ever but am glad it stopped before I started measuring my own wa#ls.#I love more than words that he never wrote Thumpers real name in when he found it out & when she said she was getting her tattoos removed I#almost started crying like a kid#Not because I give a shit about her tattoos but I was seized by the knowledge at that moment — and I don’t know if this is true#it’s probably not; it’s probably bullshit — that she was feeling the exact same thing as he was the entire time and never took the necklace#off because she was mythologising him the way he was mythologising her and we were this close to figuring it out in time but we were also m#les and miles away. And also ‘in time’ is a fallacy. It was always always too late#But the idea just for a second that she only got all those tattoos to be in the same room as him as he made needle clusters and think about#talking to him and most of the time just going home instead. They felt the exact same thing.#And then the moment passed and I thought it was dumb to be crying about it so I stopped. It reminds me of that bit in whatever stage show t#at was where this dudes entire conflict is due to his wife not answering the phone and he catastrophises this and at the very end she picks#up; and says she’d been trying to get through to him the entire time and the phones were down.#house of leaves#currently reading
