#ls.txt

[densityv]

do you remember when tubbo visited lifesteal s3 and clown showed him around the casino and there was a fish tank full of salmon which were clown’s “pets and favourite fish to eat” and tubbo was appalled because you can’t keep a beloved pet you’re gonna eat! anyways you obviously can because branzy was standing right beside clown and if that doesn’t prove you can keep a pet you love to eat then i don’t know what does

[puppyboypatrick]

im always getting fucked by life and its never even in the ass this is so lame

[demon-xuan]

let’s play a game on ‘why is pale suddenly so anxious’! is it the midterm in an hour, is it the oss evillious novel reminding me i exist to the fandom, is it my own inability to handle people crossing onto my territory in fandom thanks to older issues, the fact i cannot go write things right now because of said midterm, or something else entirely?

~*~who the fuck knows~*~

[zisung-archive]

regret

[densityv]

my dealer, lifesteal season 5: got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called "PMC" you'll be zonked out of your gourd 💯

me: yeah whatever i don’t feel shit

me 5 minutes later: the only time minute has ever truly understood his teammates was when they betrayed him, and that was the lesson that made him understand for the final time what kind of cutthroat server lifesteal really is and that attempting to save it is a sisyphean task, but that realisation came too late and there is nothing that can fix the chasm the other PMC’s betrayal wrought in their trust and relationship and they can never go back to a time before that betrayal

my buddy brandon minutetech, pacing: i need to team with clown for the rest of my life

[densityv]

are you the “I didn't just exploit a game, I exploited a friendship I had built over years” friend or the “i almost wished we’d never met” friend

[densityv]

this is how the void war went right

[densityv]

time for my nightly minecraft yaoi post. i think linking tr!pili and ls!pili’s characters makes for such a fun development because you have tr!pili where all he wanted was just for a scrap of clown’s attention, a little respect, even a nod of acknowledgement. there was definitely an obsessive desire there for reciprocality, a desire to be just as special to clown as clown was to him. he wanted to stand on equal ground to him like people like ferre and minute, or be special the way branzy is, but it’s a monumental task he couldn’t overcome. but by the time lifesteal rolls around, pili’s come to accept clown’s true nature. he’s content to just maintain his devotion and tend to his worship without expectation for anything back—i like to use pili turning himself into a loot box for clown as an example. a guy who finally knows clown well enough to expect the betrayal and who loves him enough to prepare offerings alongside his dead body. does anyone love their god as much as pili does? does anyone believe in their own god’s cruelty above their kindness the way pili does? clown is cruel and evil and utterly ruthless and pili would never have him any other way. anyways freaky deaky devotee x person they worship like a god is a peak dynamic.