#lty.

[santaoutfitters-blog]

after giving it careful thought i have decided to become worse

[markplsthatsbad]

i’m nervous.

my shows pick up tomorrow, as payback for breaking my contract. 5 shows a week and i’m surrounded by loads of people and can’t get out of it. i’m glad doyoung and taeyong know, yeah -- but i really can’t look at the rest of this dorm properly if they find out what’s happening. this is where i should’ve just stuck to what i was doing with gahyeon. she wouldn’t be in the situation she’s in, and i could’ve just continued on with what i was doing. things would’ve been far better than this.

please don’t question it. please don’t question it when i lock the door tonight