#lucy mutters

[lucythereaderofminds]

Please don't bash me or hate me

...for breath of the wild I do not see any chemistry between Zelda and Link. I mostly see them as "close friends" or something besides a couple. Don't get me wrong I think zel ink is a cute ship but it's mostly seen more in ocarina of time,skyward sword (obiviously) but in twilight princess or breath of the wild I don't see them being a couple. Twilight princess Link and zelda barely knew each other and in breath of the wild, Link seems not to show any emotions whatsoever towards zelda only wanting to protect her as he is destined to do. I may be wrong but this is just my thoughts and opinions, they don't really matter. (If you are a zelink shipper and find this "offensive" or "Link belongs to zelda they where made for each other!" OR give me hate you will be wasting your time I will not change my mind)

[lucythereaderofminds]

i’ll have the rest of the prizes done later or tomorrow

[lucythereaderofminds]

Before I Forget

i want to congratulate these two :>

@ehuante congrats on getting 1,610 i’ll be waiting for you to get to 2,000!

@blue-black-night13 congrats with reaching 400 followers and i hope you get many more (because your art is pretty)

[lucythereaderofminds]

I was going to do a week for my persona/oc until my birthday but since i never did (and my birthday already passed) should i do it anyway?

[lucythereaderofminds]

i always get this sick feeling in my stomach ever since the last days of august... i can't actually think straight, i kinda lost interest in the fandoms i am in... and i haven't been able to draw and i rarely speak to people here. People think because i have many followers i get a lot of notes on my art  or get lots of asks or messages but in reality i don't (and i don't mind). There are times i wish i didn't make this account or even started being online. i only had a DA.i sometimes want to disappear from the internet i just don't feel happy anymore both online and offline. I feel empty. i feel like this is all some bad dream and when i wake up it's all going to be okay but it's not. this is not a dream. i am afraid of loosing things i have so much anxiety about real life  i freeze up. i just wish i didn't feel this way...but i do.

[lucythereaderofminds]

happy birthday to me...

:>

[lucythereaderofminds]

to tell the truth i have gotten even more depressed since Monday. I would spend time crying for a while and  thoughts on how much i have failed since last year. I am still struggling and trying to get over this.

i have tried looking fora job so far i  did not get the one i first applied to. i want to get my own money so in a year or 2 i  have enough so i can move out (not that i hate my parents or anything). But so far it might get tough since i have social anxiety. The thought of going out all by myself makes me freeze and panic a bit.

i haven't been able to get much art done this week i'd either start a drawing on paper   and not finish it or start a line art on sai and finish it and not give it color or not finish the line art at all.

I've also started to notice i am loosing interest in the fandoms i am in mostly FNAF. i have been in the fandom since January of 2015, i discovered it in December of 2014 when my little brother showed me a song by the living tombstone "it's been so long" based off FNAF2.

i just don't know. Part of my depression makes me think that maybe it's better off to vanish from my online accounts  either abandon them or erase them (and only keep 2 accounts)

i am trying and sometimes i fail. It doesn't help much that almost all summer my mom will nag at me on how i haven't gotten a job yet and i tell her it takes time or how i remember when i was younger she said i had no future. I feel like my life is a mess and i am also a mess. I sometimes wish this all some very bad dream or nightmare and i'll wake up and everything is okay but it's not.

to tell the truth 2016 hasn’t been a good year for me.

[lucythereaderofminds]

to my followers

sometimes tumblr doesn’t give me a notification when people tag me in a post