#lucyverse jayden

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Just a trans guy, his bestie, and his situationship.

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him and jayden kinda make my blood boil… the rest of your ocs are either lovely or at least have redeeming qualities but those two don’t seem to register that their actions have an effect on anyone else (or maybe it’s just that they don’t care how it affects them which is almost worse) and even tho it’s fiction, it makes me so irritated 😅 < hopefully this is obvious but tone doesn’t always translate well online… i love your fics so please don’t misunderstand and think i’m irritated by the way you’re writing

those two don’t seem to register that their actions have an effect on anyone else (or maybe it’s just that they don’t care how it affects them which is almost worse)

I feel like, in Jayden's case, it's about 50-50 between these two. Oftentimes, he realises he's done something shitty, but he convinces himself that it's fine, or hopes that the person will just forget about it if he doesn't bring it up again.

For Jonathan (omg I swear I don't just dislike people whose names begin with the letter J or think they're all horrible), he definitely leans towards not realising how his decisions affect others. Like when he had the baby; it was easier for him to just not say anything at the beginning, and he genuinely didn't think Charlie would be as upset as he was, therefore he doesn't feel like he's done anything wrong.

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hello friend! i made it through the work week from hell (it actually wasn’t terrible. i quite like when there’s lots to do) and have come to ramble about how much i love the halloween fics! i love how sweet asher is even when he’s feeling miserable :( i wanna tuck him away in my pocket and keep him safe. i love the insecurity and jealousy and that doused-in-cold-water feeling when jayden says another man’s name. poor ash is regretting and questioning everything. and then claudette’s arrival and the scorn! like, yes, claudette! please tell jayden what a little shit he is first thing in the morning while his head is still throbbing and his stomach hasn’t quite settled. please prolong and intensify his suffering. and also, thank you for making sure ash gets home safe and doesn’t have to try to look over his shoulder while he pukes in the bushes. and then of course there’s payton’s halloween which so good as well. i kept cringing through all the scenes set at the coffee shop since all those struggles are so relatable :’( and then the final bit there with the missing money hit like a punch to the gut. i remember that anxiety when things didn’t add up so well. but then the ending was so sweet and just balanced it out beautifully. i absolutely adore the dynamic payton and autumn have! autumn is so cute and sassy and i love her more with every fic. 🐭

Ah you're so sweet to come back and tell me all of this!

Ooh, I love the idea of Jayden being horribly nauseous and clutching his sore head while Claudette snaps at him for blacking out and leaving Asher to find his own way home. I wish I could bring myself to write a whole fic like that, but I like to evoke sympathy for my sickees and I don't feel like evoking sympathy for Jayden at this point... maybe he'll redeem himself someday but today is not that day!! I can enjoy the image from afar though hehe

Yeeeaah, Payton's retail woes are mostly me dealing with repressed memories of when I worked in a shop. I feel like a whole lot of people can relate. And I'm so glad you like Autumn and Payton because out of all of my couples, I feel like they're the most sickly-sweet and I know that's not always pleasant to read lmao

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i am very excited for the fic, but i’d love to know more about asher’s vs jayden’s perspective of their relationship. you were saying asher saw jayden wanting to hang out on halloween as him finally wanting more than a fwb type thing? 🐭

Asher's internal thoughts will deal with this a little bit in the fic, and it will come up again later too, so I'm gonna keep this short here.

Jayden sees Asher as a very convenient person to have around. He's kind, and he likes Jayden, and is usually happy to go along with whatever he says. That's not to say he's not attracted to Asher, though - he finds Asher very attractive, which is another reason to keep hanging out with him. It's just that his mind is completely elsewhere most of the time, and since Asher is always too nervous to bring the topic up, he just assumes that Asher is just as happy with the way things are as he is.

Asher, on the other hand, wishes he could make Jayden his boyfriend, but he convinces himself, over and over again, that he's just being needy and naive. But Asher feels as though he needs this connection with Jayden, whatever form that might take. That's all I'll say for now!

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how did asher and jayden meet?

The first time Asher ever noticed Jayden was in the bathroom of a night club. He noticed that Jayden was too drunk to figure out the automatic paper towel dispenser and was just standing there, staring at it. So Asher leaned over and activated the sensor for him. Then pulled the towel out for him. Then pressed the towel into his hand. At that point, Jayden looked at Asher and mumbled something like a "thank you" and "I like your hair, man" before drying his hands and wandering off to find his friends.

Next time they met was at the bar of the same club, on a different night. Asher recognised Jayden but was too shy to say hi, even though he felt a strong attraction to him.

This might be kind of cheesy, but the third time was at an ice skating rink. Asher does in-line skating as a hobby, so he's pretty good on ice, too, so when he noticed that Jayden kept falling down and getting pissed off whenever his friends would tease him, Asher finally built up the courage to go over and offer to give him some tips. They hit it off quite well, and Jayden started asking Asher to come dancing with him and his friends until eventually they started going out without Jayden's other friends.

This has me wanting to write the actual interactions they have, and I've made a few notes in a doc, but it might be a while before I get around to finishing it.

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I may have gotten carried away and made a little mood board for Asher and Jayden's Halloween, but I'm kind of anxious to post it because it makes the Halloween fic look like it's going to be a lot more dramatic than it will be.

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Jayden’s Halloween costume sounds a little on the nose….. petition for Asher to get a better man?

What can I say, I'm a sucker for imagery!

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am thinking about asher being excited to spend halloween watching scary movies with jayden (not sure if he likes horror but i can see him being enamoured with the idea of getting to cuddle up to jayden on his bed so they can share the laptop) and then having to pretend he isn’t disappointed when jayden decides they should go to a party at the last minute instead. it wouldn’t even be that terrible if jayden actually wanted to go to the party with him, but what’s so soul crushingly miserable about it is that after jayden decides he’s boring for not wanting to get absolutely sloshed, asher has to watch as he spends the night flirting with people in sexy costumes. asher’s such a sweetheart that he probably stays and drags jayden’s sorry ass back to his apartment at the end of the night when he’s too drunk to get there himself. he cleans up the puke and tucks jayden into bed after coaxing some water into him. he probably rolls something up against his back so he doesn’t turn over in his sleep, and lays a towel out over his pillow and sets the trash bin right close. he probably leaves a glass of water and some painkillers on his nightstand because he’s nothing if not a kind and caring boyfriend. jayden probably grumbles and tells him to go away when he brushes the hair off his forehead and asher can’t help the tears that sting his eyes then. maybe he sits on the couch with his head in his hands until claudette arrives home and then he’s swiping harshly at his face and hurrying out into the night before they can see just how upset he is - 🐭

Godddd I love this so much.

Unfortunately, in my head, Claudette finds a very upset Asher in the apartment more than a couple of times over the course of his weird relationship with Jayden. They do their best to try and comfort him and lightly suggest that he deserves better, but also understands that feelings can be complicated.

Side note because I love costumes: I love the idea of Asher dressing up in a skeleton jumpsuit and skull makeup for Halloween, and Jayden probably being a scary clown or something.