Tired
angst, male reader
Luda POV
Being an idol wasnt easy when dating. Most people just wanted a part of the fame. Surprisingly, i met this guy online and he made me feel special. The way he was making me feel made it seem like he saw me as a person.
His charm made it impossible for me not to fall for him like crazy and soon, really soon, He once told me that if i moved in with him we would be able to spend more time together. I couldnt be more happy with the idea so i agreed, the process was a bit of a hastle but nevertheless I made it happen.
The first few months of living with him were great, but something changed where things werent anymore. I had spoken to my unnies about how i felt and what was going on here at home. They always told me to talk to him or to just leave. But when i go to him to either talk about my feeling or about me wanting to leave, he has this way of reassuring me. I cant help but stay,
Today, i was waiting for y/n to come home. It was 1:32AM and i was sitting down in the living room. One of my members, Exy, told me that since he has been coming home late recently that i should make sure he wasnt lying.
My members dont really like him nor trust him, but they dont know him like i do. I trust him.
Lost in my own thoughts i heard a click. I turned my head to the door to be met with y/n's eyes.
"Hey, what are you doing up?" Y/N put his coat up and took off his shoes
"I...uh...I was waiting for you." I stood up rubbing my arm with the other, looking at him nervously.
"Oh, well you shouldn't have, go to sleep already." he glanced at me before trying to walk past me
"W-where were you?" I looked down.
"What do you mean I was at work?" He turned to face me.
"But these last few days you've been coming home later than usual..."I looked up to met his eyes "So i uh i called your offices to check up on you and they said you always leave at 9, that you werent there." I wrapped myself in my own arms" b-but you get home this late."
"you fuckin called my office?! What the fuck is wrong with you?" he came closer to me with every word. All i could do is look down. "dont ever do that again?! okay?! What are you ungrateful? Im working for us, for our future? Fuck Luda! Now look what you did, you have me all stressed out now." I was shaking as i took everthing in, he was right. This was all my fault then i heard him sigh.
He backed up and rubbed his face with his hands. "im going to bed.
"I-im sorry." I let of a sob
"no no no baby dont cry Luda baby. I'm sorry okay. I've been stressed about work and you. Im sorry okay, i shouldnt have taken it out on you. I just want to make sure your okay, that WE are going to be okay in the future. Okay, i love you." he hugged me and peck my lips.
"Im sorry okay." he wiped my tears and smiled at me,pecking my lips again.
"Okay, I love you too." I smiled up at him then he grabbed my hand as we went to bed.
**Time-Skip**
The next day Y/n was at work again, figuring he was going to be home late, some of my members came to visit. They asked me how the confrontation went and i couldnt help but lie. I couldnt have them hate him even more. I know they dont approve of hime but he means a lot to me. I know he does things that is best for us.
"I don't know Luda, I think he is hiding something." Seola sipped on her coffee
"Also i've been wanting to ask something. Why whenever we plan to do something you both somehow have things to do? Why cant you cancel, not even once" Dawons eyes squinted at me.
"uh well, y/n really plans out these dates and its an issue if I try to cancel." I looked down picking at the fabric of the pillow i had on my lap.
"what do you me-"Soobin was cut off with the sound of the door opening
O-oh, i didnt know we were having people over," y/n walked throught the door with a tight smile on his face. I stood up and quickly made my way to him.
"Hi i didnt think you would be home this early,S-sorry, i just wanted some company." I stood right in front of him, playing with my fingers but looking straight at him.
"Well I came out early because i wanted to do something with you but since your busy I'll find something to do" He looked at me a bit annoyed.
"I'm s-sorry." I looked down, I heard him sigh.
"It's okay, just tell me next time. Ill come back later okay." he gave a kiss on my cheek before walking out the door. I stood there, just staring at the door.
"is everything okay." I heard Exy say, making me jump before turning to face the girls
"y-yeah, I think he forgot s-something." I tried to dismiss their worried looks with a smile and made my way to sit down again.
"SOoooo I was thinkingggg we should do a movie night at our place." Yeoreum said with a wide grin
"Luda???"dawon looked at me expectantly.
Lost in thought, i figured that y/n wasnt even going to get home anytime soon. If i could make it back before he noticed I left everything sould be good.
"Yeah sounds good." WIth a nod and grin from all the girls, we started heading out
**Time-Skip**
Getting back at the dorms felt so refreshings, its been a while since i felt this.....this.....free?
Cozy in the couch with the warmth of the girls around me i didnt notice that we were on our third movie. I only noticed when i constatly felt my phone vibrate making me look at the time and the amount of missed calls and messages from y/n
❤️Y/N❤️
Where are you?
Why aren't you home?
You are with your members aren't you?
I came back with things to suprise you and now its all a waste
Do you think I fuckin deserve this?
I'm coming to get you.
You better not make a scene.
Im outside
Oh shit.
"uh umm, i have to go i-its late." I quickly got up, spookingall the girls
"No unnie!! we are in the middle of a movie sit down!!" Dayoung screamed at me.
Just then a knock came from the door. The girls looked at each other. This was bad but all i could do was freeze. Bona got up and went to check who it is.
"y/n??? what are you dong here??" Her confused voice made its way to the living room, making all the girls stand up confused as well. Seola looked up at me, but i still wasnt moving.
"Im here to pick up Luda." he stated with a harsh tone before walking past Bona. He filled my vison with an unreadable expression.
"Come on let's go." he grabbed my hand a bit harsh and started pulling to the door. There was no resistance from me, i just couldnt do anything.
"hey.. HEY DON'T FUCKING GRAB HER LIKE THAT!!!" Eunseo went between us and pulled us apart, pushing Y/N back.
"come Luda let's go." He ignored Eunseo being in his face and called me over with his hand. I could tell that he was holding back since he was in front of my members. He didnt want to cause a scene and i could tell he was getting annoyed.
"Yah!" Why are you coming in here like you havent been treating her like shit?" Exy was now in his face. He took a breath and rolled his eyes, looking at her with a very annoyed face. "like you havent been cheating on her" I looked at him when she said that, all he did was scoff with shaking his head.
"You literally have hickeys all over your neck, they werent there before now where they y/n" Eunseo jumping in. "You guys have no idea what you guys are talking about, this has nothing to do you" he pushed past him while they were still yelling at him.
"baby don't listen to them. You know I love you." He held my cheeks, making me look at him. I couldnt help but start to cry. Overwhelmed with everything going on.
"come on lets come home." he hugged me while petting my head. I was going to giving in until someone pulled him off.
"listen either you leave here willingly and never speak to her again or I call the cops and we handle this a different way." Seola crossed her hands
"The choice isn't yours!" he raised his voice a bit, staring at her with a glare. He never looked at me that badly before.
"What do you want to do Luda, you know you deserve so much better but we respect you decision and we will always be here for you" Soobin back hugged me, her soft tone helping me relax a bit.
For once there was a moment of silence, the tension was still very high, they were just waiting for my decesion
"I-Im sorry y/n but I w-want you t-to leave." I cried, while looking at him.
"Are you serious, after everything I've ever done for you, your going to throw all that away for these stupid bitches you call friends" he walked to me with anger in his eyes and his fist curled up
Eunseo grapped his shirt and pulled him back, making him stumble a bit"you havent done shit expect make her life a living hell. Now get the fuck out before i call the cops!!" she was yelling at his face. He stared at her before moving his glare at me. I couldnt help but shrink at his gaze. He looked back at Eunseo, scoffed then turned and left the dorm.
"Look this is the best thing you could have done. He is not good for you." Dayoung hugged me.
"We will stop by to get all your stuff." All the girls came and hugged me.
This moment made me realize that this is what warmth and love is. I didnt realize how tired i was at trying to make that relationship work. But sometimes family and friends are all you ever need in life.