am i the only one who feels worthless 99% of the time, but the 1% left over is when you're with that person? when you're with that person do you feel as if though everything revolves around you two and all you want to do is hug them. squeeze them tight. kiss them. cuddle with them. or just be with them? i feel it all the time and i don't know if i'm the only one. which i'm almost positive i'm not. you probably think this is fucking retarded and will stop reading it, but i wanna just finally let how i feel about this one guy. this one guy we didn't even start talking since this school year in 2012. at first him talking to me was pretty much a joke and a challenge im and his friends were having. but i went along with it and we started talking more, pretty soon we became friends. one day somehow he got my number. now we text all.the.time. no fucking joke. most people think he's ugly. sure, he's not the hottest guy in school. but i don't think anyone realizes how happy he makes me. he's a weird ass kid. but he's amazing to me. it's kind of terrible how much i actually like him. everyone says he likes me back and he's to nervous to ask me out or shit. but sometimes i feel like he really doesn't like me and this is still all a big joke to him. i just want to be able to walk into school in the mornings and have him wrap his arms around me and tell me i'm beautiful but i just don't think it will happen. now i'm going to tell you i'm only 13. he's 14. you may say i can't feel this way about him but it's true they say if you have a crush on someone for over four months, you're in love.i won't say i'm in love. i don't even think i understand what true love is just yet. but someday i will. this boy can brighten my day in seconds. and i get butterflies if we touch or accidently brush by in the halls. he makes me crazy and it's bad. alright no one's probably fucking readin this anyways so i'm leaving and going to scroll through tumblr like this didn't happen at all. so ya. thats my crush. and i hate my life now. bye.