a/n: Okay I’m really excited for this one. It will be a multi part story line! And I just kinda through this together tonight so please let me know what you think!
Luke Hemmings x Reader roughly 1.5k
Warnings: abandonment, angst
Synopsis: After abruptly leaving tour for personal reasons the boys show up looking for answers.
To say I miss touring was an understatement, I miss the adrenaline rush and the long nights staying up talking once a show had finished. I miss bonding with the crew over things no one else understood and I miss the boys more than anything. A year ago I never would have anticipated leaving the tour on such short notice but then life happened.
I was never good at goodbyes and I couldn’t bear to admit that I was really leaving. So I did the only logical thing to avoid it, I left in the middle of one of their shows. I texted the boys that I wasn’t feeling well and then I just left. I couldn’t face them, to this day I never really said goodbye. I gave them a vague answer telling them I couldn’t take being on the road anymore and needed some time to myself.
These have been the longest and most exhausting six months of my life, but I wouldn’t change it for anything. My sister gave birth roughly a year ago to my beautiful nephew and then six months ago she just left. She couldn’t raise him on her own and she chose to leave him with her roommate and a note to call me; I will never forget that phone call. My heart broke for my nephew, he was innocent in all the drama that surrounded his birth. He was just a baby and he needed me. I instantly knew I had to be the one to raise him, there was no one else since my mom died a few years back and my dad was never in the picture. It wasn’t fair to me or him but we all had to play with the cards we are dealt.
I was so mad at my sister, I couldn’t understand how she could just leave her son. I knew she had been through a lot with the baby’s father but from our conversations she had been doing okay and there were no signs she would do something so extreme. I loved being an aunt more than anything in the world, but I never imagined having to step in and be a single mother at my age. If I’m being honest I was never sure I wanted to have kids at all but I always thought I would have time to make that choice.
I was broken from my thoughts by cries coming from the next room. I checked the monitor and saw he had pulled himself up and was standing in his crib yelling. I groaned pausing my show and rolling off the couch.
I looked at the clock and saw he had only gone down 45 minutes ago, meaning he was up over an hour earlier than he should be. I groaned thinking about how bad the rest of the day would be if he doesn’t get back to sleep soon. I decided to help my future self out and quickly warmed up a few ounces of milk in case I couldn’t soothe him back to sleep on my own.
Twenty minutes later and I was glad I made the bottle, he fell right back to sleep after drinking it. I sat back down on the couch with a sigh, debating if I wanted to finish my show or sleep for an hour. I settled on another episode of New Girl because I was too exhausted to even focus on anything new. I had barely hit play when someone started pounding on the door.
“Shit,” I jumped up trying to get to the door before the pounding woke the baby. Whoever was at my door, I was going to kill whoever it was as I wasn’t expecting any packages today. “For the love of god, stop knocking you’re going to wake the baby!” I lightly yelled as I yanked the door open.
I froze, my mouth still hanging open, staring at the four lanky boys on my doorstep.
“We missed you,” Calum smiled at me.
“I missed you the most!” Ashton pouted.
“Baby?” Luke whispered, eyes open in shock. Heading swiveling from the other boys to me.
My brain could not register what was actually happening, that the boys were actually standing on my front porch. I stopped to take them in and see how much they changed over the past few months. Michaels hair was now platinum blonde, a color I think suited him best. He also just looked so much happier, something I knew to be credited to his relationship with Crystal. Calum looked pretty much the same, his hair was just a bit shaggier and he somehow looked tanner than before. Ashton had dyed his hair black and somehow seemed taller to me. Lastly my eyes trailed to Luke, he looked mostly the same but there was something wrong with his eyes; they weren’t filled with their usual mischief..
“Y/N did yo-did you have a baby?” Calum asked, eyes glancing behind me to the mess of baby toys strewn through the house.
“Is that why you left?” Ash looked at me with concern.
“What are you guys doing here? How did you even get my address?” I asked dodging their questions, but they all saw through me.
“Don’t ignore us Y/N, tell us what the hell happened back in New York? You were part of our family and then you were just gone?” Michael asked.
I sighed and moved aside to let them in. “Come in, but please keep it down. I don’t want to wake up the baby.”
The four of them shuffled into the house all awkwardly standing in the entryway, staring at the disaster my house was.
“Sorry for the mess, I wasn’t expecting company.” I moved around them and quickly cleared the toys off the couch, tossing them into a nearby bin. “Please sit, do you guys want anything to drink? I have water and lemonade.”
They all nodded and mumbled ‘sure.’ I knew they were all a bit shell shocked at how they found me. Not one of them anticipated me to be settled down, they all knew how much I loved being on the road.
“I’ll help you,” Luke stood up and followed me into the kitchen.
“The cups are over there,” I pointed to the cabinet next to the sink as I opened the fridge to pull out the drinks, I even had some soda I didn’t know about. I turned to find Luke staring out the window obviously deep in thought. I could tell that he had something he wanted to get off his chest.
He turned to me, “What do you mean?”
“I know you Luke, you clearly have something you want to say to me so…” I gestured for him to talk.
He sighed, running his hand through his hair, tugging slightly at the ends. I could tell he was having an inner conflict with himself about whether he should voice his thoughts or not. He took another deep breath before raising his eyes to meet mine.
“I just didn’t understand why you left. I was so mad at you Y/N, you left without a word, I didn’t even get a separate text. I was so prepared to come here and demand a response, but it’s pretty clear looking around why you left.” he pointed to the high chair and bibs next to the table.
“Luke I wanted to tell you, so badly but I couldn’t.”
I took a step towards him, reaching out my hand to touch his elbow but he pulled away moving to lean against the island.
“Then why didn’t you? I would’ve helped Y/N if you just told me. You didn’t have to do this alone.”
“I didn’t have a choice Luke. There was no-”
The look on Luke’s face cut me off, he looked so heartbroken. I couldn’t imagine that he would be that upset over me leaving the tour. Sure we had a few drunken hookups here and there, and I thought there was a chance for us to be more but I had to leave and we never got the chance to find out. I never thought Luke would be this upset over me. I opened my mouth to try and explain to him, but his next words stopped me.
“We came backstage and you were just gone. One text saying you needed a break? That’s all we were worth to you? Is that all I was worth to you Y/N? I thought we could be something, but you never gave me a chance. You just bailed. And now we show up after all this time and you have a kid? I can’t believe it. I just-I just need to know. Am I the dad?”