#luluspeaks

[hellothisissade]

like if i had a list of how many shows/ships of mine got ruined bc of white girls in fandom i swear to god.

ship wars? 

did you mean: canon vs. white fragility?

[raven-honey-royal]

I just discovered my aesthetics and what I am after spending the past few weeks talking to my fiance and girlfriend.

Here we go:

Goddesscore

Angelcore

Piratecore

Royalcore

Anti Hero

Dark Academia

Sirencore/Mermaidcore

Corruption of the Mind

Polyamorous

Demibiromantic

Demibisexual

Genderfluid Demigirl

Switch (both sub and dom)

Sadist

Masochist

Savior Complex

God Complex

That I have changed since I was a helpless 16 year old. I'm done hiding. I'm done trying to be some sweet innocent little girl. If you don't like that and would rather stay on the "safe" side, there's the door. Not forcing you out just if ya wanna go leave.

[hellothisissade]

this harvey weinstein shit is really starting to piss me off.

i’m so thankful to the women who felt empowered enough to step forward after decades of this man doing everything in his power to silence them.

shame on hollywood. 

[hellothisissade]

on leadership

ya’ll i’m in a top dog spot at my new job and most of the times i’m really on top of my shit but other times i fuck up lol and this is one of those times.

out of frustration, but also in general interest of helping the team--- i ended up making my editor really upset bc i tried to impose something that i didn’t know have the authority to impose.

SO.

luckily i realized like basically right after the fact and promptly apologized (prob not good enough tho lol) but i definitely sense a distance from her and i feel bad about that.

but also, on the other hand i’m kinda like fuck this noise someone has to say SOMETHING. hopefully it leads to change but if not, whatever, at least i said what i had to say and did what i had to do.

i dont mind having a leadership position but i think i’m finding more often than not it’s really hard to manage myself in addition to what everyone else is doing to make sure shit gets done on time.

but i love it??? learning a lot of new shit

i guess i just feel bad bc i really like my editor and i think i’ve spoiled things between us (for now). 

[hellothisissade]

benihime99

lol wtf?

it’s bc i’m one of five ppl on the planet who didn’t like the wonder woman movie, lol.

i literally had a friend bitch me out for disliking it! and when i asked him if he felt like my criticisms were unwarranted he was like “this movie had a lot riding on its shoulders” and i’m like--- yeah but what does that have to do with poor dialogue?? and why do i need to know wonder woman in the comics in order for me to ~*really understand*~.

it’s so fucking patronizing.

but i understand how much this movie means to a lot of ppl so i’ll just post my 100% valid criticisms in like a month or so LMAO.

[hellothisissade]

can i just say...?

just give me black love. just give me a black man loving a black woman. a black woman loving a black woman. a black man loving a black man.

not cheating on each other.

not choosing the white girl/boy over each other. 

JUST. BLACK. LOVE.

 it’s STUNNING how hard it is to see that in the media.

[hellothisissade]

this the shit that kills me

this newly united force doesn’t inspire me, it scares the shit out of me.

it feels like a temporary solution to a big fucking problem.

it’s only been a week? that’s crazy.

what’s crazier is ppl really sitting around acting like this shit is new. 

it’s NOT new. and to behave as such is insulting to the ppl who’ve been fighting this fight long before white ppl decided it was time to give a fuck.

it BOTHERS me that it took a man like trump for ppl to begin to even ADMIT and even within that, the lack of actual realization is troubling.

you’re not gonna have me watching a white supremacist, elected by white ppl, passing discriminatory laws surrounded by white men and preach to me about unity. WE dont live in a bubble, WHITE PPL do. and what the fuck have they done to change that? NOTHING. STILL. SOMEHOW. 

i’m asking women why they marched and most of them are telling me it’s bc it’s “historical” and “everyone is gonna be there”. what a moving turnout! i have honestly never seen white women care so damn much about ANYTHING. 

it bothers me that ppl are doing this without understanding how the fuck we got here. it’s EASY to rally in mass and say muslims should be allowed to exist without persecution. what’s HARD is saying that shit to your racist ass co-workers, and family members. how the fuck am i sitting in a room full of gay men, listening to a straight white man wax poetic about his ignorance to sympathetic ears. and i’m listening like shut the fuck up you weak piece of shit. you want me to sit here and explain to you why someone who is queer should have the same rights as you bc you “grew up differently”? 

get the fuck out of my face. let me tell you how that’s not even a conversation i’m willing to entertain anymore.

am i’m supposed to be moved by white actors on stage talking about fighting trump when they can’t even be bothered to fight for equal casting opportunities within their own industry? like nigga---i saw that ad for the great wall, and ghost in the shell is right on its heels. and networks are still dropping shows with all white casts--- that’s our MEDIA and that’s NASTY. 

like...what the fuck is going on? what is happening right now? nothing feels REAL.

this all feels like one big ass distraction.

i’m not sure i like socially conscious america.

[raven-honey-royal]

In regards to my coming out post, I have not told my parents or my entire family or friend group yet. I am only out to my best friend, my internet mom, my fiance, my little sister and my cousin.

As a female at birth, I do have some dysphoria when it comes to my gender identity. I've never felt 100% like a full girl before. I've always felt like something was missing about me being a female. Yes I have the body but something was missing.

As I explained in my post, I am nonbinary. I'm also genderfluid. Sometimes its static, there is no gender just that small girl part and nothing else. I have felt the small girl part and neverending static for a majority of my life. Now, I have realized there is another part besides the static, the nonbinary where I fell like I'm somewhere in between female and male.

My dysphoria isnt as bad as some people's but it does make me feel bad.