#luxanie

[ashleyshos]

"When they were kids, Lux and Danie had dreams of what their lives would be like when they grew up. Their parents wouldn't buy them Ken dolls so they had two dolls who's hair was cut short that they used for boys and played out their various dreams of adult life. At least until Lux's mother found the dolls. She promptly took them and sent Danielle home, placing a call to her mother to tell her what their girls were doing with their dolls." - Luxanie

omg I love this 😂

[ashleyshos]

☠: my muse’s reaction to being told that your muse is missing, and presumed dead - Luxanie

Danielle clutched the rims of the metal bin she’d found in a moment’s notice, crying as she expelled her vomit into it for the second time in the past three minutes. It was a reaction Danielle hadn’t experience before, not to news like this. And this wasn’t the first time she’d gotten this sort of news. Being Order leader actually made her quite used to it. But nothing could have prepared her for this.

Ten minutes passed before the nausea did and the Harkers helped her to the couch, her sobbing not ceasing. “You don’t understand,” she pleaded. “I c-can’t lose her.” But her words were almost unintelligible with the coughing and the sobbing and the ragged breaths. Her entire body was shaking and she felt dizzy. Her heart was pounding and her head felt as if it were about to explode. How could this have happened? How could she have let this happen?

“Lux,” she sobbed, feeling the tight embrace that could only belong to Jon wrap around her, a wet towel that likely came from Tilly washing her face. But she didn’t open her eyes. She couldn’t despite the tears that flowed from them. She didn’t want to see a world without her best friend.

[ashleyshos]

My muse died a long time ago, and while looking through my muse's belongings your muse finds a note with their name written on it. Send "✉" for what it says For Luxanie!

Lux,

I know I promised I would never leave you. But I’m going to have to break that promise. Not because I want to but because I know that I won’t be given another choice. I’m afraid, Lux. I’m so afraid; of leaving you, Declan, everyone I care about, and of course of dying. But I’m trying to be brave in the face of death. I don’t want to scare you with the details but you know what’s happened to me.

I knew this was the risk I faced when I accepted the position of Order leader but I never thought it would happen. Please don’t hate me, Lux. I’ve tried to save myself but as much as it kills me to admit it, I’m not strong enough. Please take care of Declan for me. I know you see him as your son so I don’t think you’ll struggle to see him as your own. But please don’t let him forget me. Please. Remind him of his mother and of how much I’ve loved him. Tell him that I died doing what I loved and trying to make the world a better place for him.

I love you, Lux. You’re my best friend and my life has truly been shaped by having you in it. This won’t be easy for you, I’m sure, just as you leaving this earth wouldn’t be easy for me. But stay strong for him and remember all the wonderful memories we’ve had. It’s cheesy to say but we’ve had so many, enough to last a lifetime. You’ve made my life so full and I’m so grateful I’ve gotten to call you my sister.

Love,

Danie