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The Year Of Jordan

Do you know how hard It is to be 22? Having a minimum wage job, a mother that doesn't understand why you can't get a better one, and a spirit that just about had enough of everything. You'd think I'd be walking on air, but I'm not. I'm still trying to find myself in the desert. The sun's to hot, the wind isn't any better, and all these mirages of opportunity keeps getting the best of me. What am I supposed to do? I'm lost. The only thing faith does is keep me from giving up, but I need more than that. I'm in a sand storm, so I can't really see where I'm going. It's crazy how the night is my only comfort. In the dark where I don't have to hide my worries. It already knows, it already shows, and it always holds me down. This year it has to change. This year is the year of miracles, the year of overflow My jordan year. Things will go up in my favor. I just have to wait and not give up. I'll finally find the jordan.

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Seasons Change

It’s funny how we met. I guess It was just our time to find love. I loved every second of seeing you. From the first time I saw your face, even if it wasn’t in person, till the last minute I saw you I was in love. Every hour, we stayed up all night talking, I’m not gonna lie, I even liked seeing you fall asleep. Every day we talked on the phone. Every week, I was counting until the next time I got to meet you. You said I was taking up to much space, so I gave it to you, but I think that’s we things went bad. It’s like Father Time and Mother Nature had a baby. Yes I fell in love with her, but she’s not the same. I’m not gonna say her name, but let’s call her season, because she always changing. From sunny days to night storm. I tried to calm her down, but it didn’t work. We were once hot for each other, but how all of a sudden I feel like you're giving me the cold shoulder? I know you’re in pain. I can see the storm in you’re eyes. I’m trying to weather it, but you ended up forcing me away with your Gail winds. It’s crazy how we were sprung then came the summer. Now I’ve fallen & here comes winter. Still, no matter what, I’m still happy that I got to be with you. Even if it was only for three months.

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Trust me they were bad girls. Still they won't bad ones, but they were the wrong ones for me. Two wrongs, even though I tried to treat them right, I end up getting left.

"Why I'm Single" by Lil' Mr. C.A.M.

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XOXO (The Game)

Yeah it was all fun and games till my heart started to break. We both were running game, but we didn’t know how to play since both of us got hurt. Not enough sense to change. Man, we couldn’t even make enough to pay attention. We were destroying each other. You wouldn’t listen to me and I would not listen to you. So we went deaf to each other’s pain. That’s why nothing but death could come of this love. You still don’t understand the depth of this situation we’re in do you? Simply put we both used cheat codes in this dating game. See you thought you were slick. A player playing the game, but you about to get played. Your gamer card is about to get revoked. I don’t know why I even tried. You kept comparing me to your ex’s, but I kept saying, “Oh no, I’m not like him”. Told you I love you. You said it back, but didn’t mean it. So the game is over, no one wins, and I’m not going tic for tac on these broken toes.

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I do.

I can't wait to be at the place where: Want turns to need. Hearing turns to listening. Speaking turns to talking. Touch turns to feel. Seeing turns to watching. Hoping turns to believing. Attraction turns to love. All this just to, feel, touch, say two words......

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No matter what I do my family loves me.

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The Little Engine That Shouldn't

I think I can, I know I can, but maybe I shouldn't. Maybe it's not a good idea to open the door everytime opportunity knocks on. Not every opportunity is for you. You'll never know until you try, though some things are just common sense. Sometimes we are pushed to do things that's a waste of are time. Like that time your boys told you to talk to that girl but she shoots you down, or that time your girls hook you up with this dude & he tell you if you loved me you'll lay with me and vice versa. Sometimes what we actually hear is not Mr. opportunity knocking, but the fat lady singing, because you are at ends trying to make ends meet and you finally get that position you wanted, but now you're one or two bucks away from going ham on your job. See this is why I'm not really influenced by peer pressure, because I'm already twenty something years old sooner or later years go by and I'm stuck in a place I shouldn't be in learning lessons I don't really need to know. Wasting time I cannot get back, and all along I end up figuring out I was right the first time, that I probably shouldn't have done what I did. Now, my dream girl is my annoying baby mama, I dropped out of class to to get a job to support my child, and lastly this job has too many personalities and it is making me think about breaking one of the ten commandments. This is why we need to discern which door we should open and which we should leave alone. To do that we must pray and ask God, because it might have been a test of your faith all along. So remember don't take evey opportunity you see, know the difference between the right opportunity and the wrong one.