Lycanrambles. ⋆｡𖦹° ⏾ ˚｡⋆
Been a hot minute since I rambled.
It’s so weird sometimes seeing other werewolves post. My wolf is closer to how the werewolf books online are. The ones people laugh at. Aside from appearances, mine has no connection to most “lore” or history.
Before I explain this part: I am not plural. I wouldn’t be mad if I found out I am one day, but I know this isn’t a separate entity.
I’ve always felt a wolf. It’s always been there. I’ve always spoken with it much like they describe in those books. The first time I read one back in middle school, it was like “Hey! Me too!” At the time I didn’t know about alterhumanity, so I just said I was a werewolf.
Later when I was introduced to omegaverse, once again…It was a “that’s me!” When I read about omegas. I’m a trans guy in human terms, but most of the time I just say I’m a male omega(obviously in situations where it’s not completely awkward). Funny enough it’s actually helped my dysphoria. My hips aren’t wide because I’m not a man, it’s because I’m an omega. I’m lacking downstairs because I’m an omega, not because I’m not a guy. It helps. I like being a pretty male omega.
My instincts are a mix of both. I want the pack houses described in a lot of werewolf books. I want the pack. The pack links, the bond. It always feels like there’s a space missing where a pack bond is meant to go. I feel the need to nest and caregive that they describe for omegas. The need to be the internal protector. The internal provider. I want to be the last line of defense for the ones who can’t fight if the alphas get taken down.
Like, I’m 26 and it makes me feel like a teenager dreaming of an impossible life. I want it so bad. The pack, the house, the community, the ability to shift as a pack and just run. ⋆｡𖦹° ⏾ ˚｡⋆
I’m making a wishlist for nesting, mostly on Etsy, so if anyone has any store recommendations I’d appreciate them ^.^
(Anyone is allowed to add in if they relate by the way. Don’t worry about “derailing”. I enjoy reading others thoughts.)