Lysander felt the regret weighing in on him. There was a sadness but a clarity. Maybe the truth was somehwre in between. The fear for Billie and Briggs. But it was too late. Lysander remembered the words of his own father.
Lysander are too soft and thats where you fail.
Lysander groaned into his hands. For a man who didn't claim he was a tinker, he sure acted like one.
He began to write the letter.
Dearest Billie,
I am writing to be confess my misgivings. Truthfully I don't want to lose you but in the process I pushed you and Briggs away. It's clear to me now that I have gone too far. I have become as cruel as a man I sworn I wouldn't be
You have every right to not want me in your life. Same with Briggs. Truthfully I am scared for the both of you. I fear the oea and every force I cant protect you from. I see all the things that can hurt you and I shouldn't have let one of them be me.
This will not be the last time I apologize, rather I wanted to give you some closure before I left the compound. I am far from the man you can be proud of. I am vindictive and still damned. I will be traveling to figure out how to be a true man, a father you'd be proud of.
If you have an urgent message I have attached some fairy dust to track me with. I also leave Astolfo in your care.
Finally if I hadn't said it yet. I love you like a daughter Billie Daw- Mikaelson. You will be a woman that will make waves, I can tell that much. Maybe someday I'll be able to do something a father would.
Until then stay safe, keep saying dude, and enjoy everyday as its last.
Sir Lysander Castro the Wandarer.