Aug 2, 2015
Aku ingin memelukmu, sayang Aku cuma takut Aku akan membuat diriku sendiri beku Dan kita tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa
Aku api, tapi tidak selamanya berkobar riang
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Aku ingin memelukmu, sayang Aku cuma takut Aku akan membuat diriku sendiri beku Dan kita tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa
Aku api, tapi tidak selamanya berkobar riang
uhm, mental health thing?? so
me: *tries to engage in a conversation with a crush who probably has no interest in me, maybe not even a bit*
me: what are you doing?
also me: *has millions of reasons flashing in my head*...idk
me: he’s probably not interested
also me: but he MIGHT be, you don’t know that
me: if he is you would know
also me: WELL,
*on and on, and then I’ll get sad, and then I’m going to probably cry for the next hour while listening to Halsey in repeats, falls asleep, tries to hold back tears in the morning*
this is my cycle for the lat month, and I want it to stop.
(I have a suspicion this isn’t just a ~boy problem~, because I had this with friend too, but I’m not gonna guess)
Update on the college/uni thing
B- on the Psychometric thing.
Wow.
I mean considering me feeling tired on that 4 hour course, ALMOST EVERY CLASS, I’m...surprised.
I’m pretty sure the lecturers saw my struggle or something (I never really confused about anything, it’s just I dozed off every so often) and...
Huh.
Teach you to never over-expect anything, because something you thought would be bad could turned out decent, and the opposite.
(NOT HINTING ON ANYTHING ELSE GOING ON IN MY LIFE OR ANYTHING)
Academic and college/university shit so steer clear if you’re as nervous as me about it. I just need a place to let this one out.
Alright, I sucked it up and went to the uni website to check my courses grade for that last semester.
It was okay?? I did pretty good, considering. Wow.
Like, I have B+s, a B and B-s for 6th of them. I was expecting Cs as usual but not yet so far. And thIS last one is Psychometric and I hate it and I’m afraid of it so I might stall to look at it.
*crosses fingers*
I enjoyed "To All the Boys I've Loved Before". Such a wonderful story with great characters and twists. And Asian characters! I'll look for more of Jenny Han's books this summer.
Hi there!
I mean, instead of vague tweeting me (in very much public timeline) about my apparent mistake using preposition, you could’ve told me in private chat, you know, as a small thank you for showing you my already-finished analysis as “an example” for your own work (why did you just do your interview today anyway?)
Sincerely, I’ll turn in my work earlier tomorrow and be sure to find me flipping my burger at your general direction
PS: Some of us did it night after night after night so we apologized for any spelling or grammatical mistake. Jesus.
AN UPDATE (because I’m scared and excited and promised myself to continue that report after this post)
1) Screening I’m running is a go and to be held this Saturday
2) I dust-cleaned my old Twitter account and apparently followed a CC shipper back then? Ugh.
3) But overall I’m ready for the future
4) I’m just excited, but unsure for what, hopefully brighter tomorrow.
5) :-)
A Story no.1
I’m just really tired of everything that I do and put into real power and abilities, the best one I can do, never works by something unimportant that I can’t control. What am I supposed to do next? I don’t know. Maybe I’m not up for leading, or anything substantial I guess.
For once I want to have my own success story.