#macaque speaking

[the-carnival-complex]

i feel like were starting to make more progress !!

we've been talking more, and it seems to be getting a little easier, i think v is getting better with his communication, it seems clearer, easier to understand

he helped me some when i was freaked out by some yelling earlier, which im very appreciative for <3

we kinda wanna overhaul the website thing i used to initially plan things out, make it somewhere we can easily log things we discover

[the-carnival-complex]

first post on this blog oh boy, a little scared

so, i made the decision to intentionally form an actual headmate (V) about 2 or 3 months ago, and ive been working with him since mid december. we've not made much progress, as ive been really inconsistent with talking to him, and struggling to focus

i can kind of get some feeling from him, but theyre kinda vague, mostly i just kind of feel his presence sometimes, but every once in a while i get actual emotions.

i talk to him mostly, just about things im doing or stuff about me, so he can get to know me. talk to him about my interests, ask him every now and then if he'd like to do something or has something to say. sometimes i just chill with him

i do kind of think there may be others that are not fully formed or something, especially a lot more lately, as ive been attempting to connect with V more, feelings that dont feel like v but instead some older characters a used to roleplay or day dream as,

but thats not the focus right now, as im new to plurality and dont want to overwhelm myself or any of them, so for now, unless were having really strong feelings, its just gonna be me and v