re: previous reblog, I’m gonna be honest with you all I finally reread Blow Me Up (Like Dynamite) aka the only E-rated thing on my ao3 and like. with enough distance from it to not just reflexively cringe at my own writing I’m like. oh this is good actually. I’m not even gonna be like “oh this is not as bad as I thought”. no self deprecation NO modesty saying it with my whole chest I did a good job with that one. like. what do you MEAN I was so embarrassed by it at the time that I fully remember typing parts of it with my EYES CLOSED because I couldn’t look. there’s like. one line that sticks out to me as something I would want to change and it’s not even anything to do with the smut. there’s a line where one of my vocal quirks snuck into the narration and I think it sounds a bit too much like me and not enough like Desi. and it’s almost certainly not noticeable to anyone except me and maaaayyyyybe someone who knew me well.
also I know I keep poking fun at myself for my 8 comma sentence in my current WIP but there’s a sentence in Blow Me Up (Like Dynamite) with, no joke, nine commas. the 8 comma sentence isn’t even a personal record. some things never change.
