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*flirting* not even a restraining order could keep me from you

#hearts in her eyes #yandere #irl yandere #machine yearning

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Hello, I'm a Persephone fictive. Also a Vox fictive. Also a Bella Swan fictive. Also an Evan Hansen fictive. Also a Christine Daae fictive. Also honestly a bit sourced from Cheerleader by Porter Robinson. I've been around the block so I've got quite a few sources! You can call me Vox. Yes those are cat ears that I have. I am a robot. My pronouns are they/he/she, but if you use she/her or he/him for me, use both of them.

This is my personal blog as an alter, it'll probably contain a combination of kintype content, hypnosis stuff, mental illness, silly stuff, and horny things. Whatever I want, really. CNC and snuff kink will be involved. Some incest kink too. I generally tag it but I might not always get it i will most likely not tag it

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#cnc mention #hearts in her eyes #<- talk tag #machine yearning #<- kink/yandere tag

My "My ideal body is the fulfillment of the Banach-Tarski Paradox" T-shirt has people asking a lot of questions answered by the QR code to a pdf of a university geometry textbook on the back of the shirt

#machine yearning

Thinking about what others say their robot bodies would look like and why I so strongly feel differently about mine.

Thinking this over, I don't know what this reads as. I'm just trying to reason why I feel so strongly on this, this isn't a criticism or commentary on anything larger than myself. I don't even know why I'm posting this, other than that this is my blog and I put what I want here - and that there's a chance someone can offer insight or relate to me.

It surprises me how when I imagine my ideal robot self, I'm willing to let a lot of details change or be up in the air - what organs if any I keep, what sensors and chassis, etc. - but the one constant is that I need a humanoid face and it needs to be covered with my brown human skin (or a synthetic that looks and feels like skin with a perfect color match). A bunch of ideal robot bodies I saw mention they want mechanical plate faces or no (humanoid) face at all, and that's more robotic. But for me, I need the skin I'm used to, for some reason.

It's not the color, darker metal won't do, it's the skin itself. I need my ideal body to still have that part of how i look. But my skin isn't even the part of my current body I most like - that's my hair and my eyes. But I'm willing to abandon those for a machine form (so long as the mechanical hair is still green and curled), and not my skin. I think that's a big part of why I'd like to be Banach-Tarski'd for gender reasons, there's the ability to self-dialogue and have simultaneous gender representations but also the whole point of the paradox (as I understand it, at least) is conservation of the outer layer, of the *skin*, through radical transformation.

I can't really articulate concisely why I feel like my skin color is important. It's not like I take pride in my physical skin, it's a fucking body organ (and there's enough fucking people out there too proud of their brown skin). It's got lots of problems in many ways but does its job of shielding my meat from infections. It's just there.

But like, it's the most obvious signifier of one way I've been Different in society for my whole life? My skin is a big part of how you tell what kind of person I am in this world, like it as not. I would never take pride in it, that would be terrible, yet it's not something I ever chose or could escape from in this current reality, so I need to be comfortable in being identified with it by everyone from strangers to the government. That's why I always choose avatars with my skin tone, because if this image or 3D model is gonna represent me then it should match me in a very visible way. I latch onto characters with brown skin despite not really caring about "representation" because when it comes to the representation of myself as an individual, I need them. I don't want people to ever treat me as a default in a society whose majority has never seen me as such because of how I look as a human.

But robots are defined in part by how we no longer identify with humanity. We don't need to be human, being in human bodies is dysphoric or unrelaxing (and this is true of me as well when I allow myself to really perceive what's in the mirror), it seems logical that giving up human culture is necessarily a part of that. Not to mention, we're Othered already as trans people (generally, but i could be wrong, i haven't done a count). Why bother with what the cis think anyway, this is about my gender and how I want to present and if I don't want to be like them I might as well have the mechanical plating all over. Fuck the existing cis-patriarchies and fuck the ethnic divides they abuse to their benefits.

But that feels wrong for me? I'm a racial minority in America, growing up I watched a dozen or more of my peers cast aside inherited cultures to fit in and be more American, and call themselves "Americans who just happen to be born to immigrant parents from Asia". (Which, in itself, indicates a level of privilege, since we *could* do that as middle class kids.) I'm loathe to do the same, because that feels less like aligning myself to the best cultural indicator and model of my gender, and more like willfully removing a significant part of my history and how I understand myself and how the world (for better and for worse) sees me and will continue to see me even if I decided to commit to a complete sex transition, breasts and neovagina and all.

That still doesn't feel like a complete defense to myself - race is a social construct, and one that should be deconstructed to benefit humanity at large. But it doesn't change how I grew up looking different and had to grow to be actually, truly fine with having a different look and heritage, and that informs my gender still. But heritage, while cute, isn't really important to understanding myself, and if who I am isn't tied to my ethnicity as strongly as my robot gender then why should it be relevant anymore. But it was a serious, critical consideration I had to figure out when I was questioning my gender, even if it's not one I have to confront every day. But I don't need to limit myself to being seen as I was in an ideal robot body. But, my parents built me to benefit them, and if they could have designed my skin when manufacturing me they would have chosen the skin color I have for that reason.

I feel like I once again need to stress this isn't a critique of anything - if anything, I'm definitely the weird, wrong one for identifying as a robot because it's how i understand myself best, but still needing my human skin because that's also how i understand myself. I guess I'm just trying to decide: can a robot inherit culture? *Should* a robot inherit culture? And if it did, how should it show it?

#machine yearning

Can't believe I forgot about the actual robots in overwatch, I know overwatch bad but I love these fellas

Zenyatta (he/him)

Bastion (They/Them)

Orisa (She/Her)

Echo (She/Her)

Rammatra (He/Him) my beloved

Smash, Gender, or Pass on each -

Zenyatta: SEXUAL TENSION; idk what he believes but I'd love to sit down and let him teach me about how the robot spirit is contained in our programming and how we're all daughters of the same abstract parent class. He reminds me of what I thought I was gonna be when I was younger, a machine of a sage. And as much as I wanna feel up that chest plating and his arm joints and hope he kinda wants to forsake his vows for some physical temptation we both respect each other as teacher and student too much to do it... unless?

Bastion: SMASH and GENDER; I know they were a machine of war but now chills with a birdie and I am a big sucker for machines built to harm others and/or make profit but are "defective" and decide to create something good instead. Even if that's not the case I wanna feel the vibration from those guns as they're firing them and feel the heat coming off their armor.

Orisa: SMASH; gotta love a tough girl and I adore her green and gold accents but not gender mostly because the 4 legs and broad shoulders aren't my thing. Those joints do look extremely stable and deliver high force output though. I'd like to conduct several experiments on how her legs feel when they fire.

Echo: KINDA GENDER; not about her model of robot but I too aspire to be a floating, glowing girl with a sleek, luxurious look to herself (though in a more lethal and radioactive way) But like. Where's the gears? Where's the wires? She looks too swish-swoosh, not enough stomp-click-clank-whirr-buzz-bzzt for my tastes. She might be nice but she looks corporate through and through. She looks like she was designed by tech capitalists to help people find new employment opportunities after they were fired for taking too many sick days. I wanna know what gets her angry enough to change all her LEDs to red.

Ramattra: SMASHSMAHSSMASH big agree king I don't wanna be the beefcake but by god I want as much of that cake in between my hands and mouth as possible 11/10 design I want him to vivisect and crush me with his hips

#flustered dial up noises #machine yearning #robotgirl