Some personnal views on Paganism: building my path
Answering questions to a book called Paganism, written by Higgibotham, wich I can’t recommand enough for anyone who identifies as a pagan and needs clarification and further reflexion and insights in the topic. Truely enlighting. This is the first part of a little serie of answering paganism related prompts.
Wich season of the year is your favorite? What do you remember from your childhood about this season that has special meaning for you? How do you celebrate this season now?
It’s Fall, but also Spring. I’m gonna speak about Fall as we are drawn in it at the moment. At a psychic level, Fall is a time for introversion, return to the intimacy between close ones. Fall is human life keeping on activating: working, studying, moving. It’s the last spectacular breath of nature in all its dramatic splendor. It’s that mysterious ambience around Samhain, where you can feel something, something more in the air, something loud, presence and a deep, profound calm as the days fade earlier each time. Autumn is death time, change time, an ending cycle and the opening of a period of a well deserved rest.
When I was a child, Fall wasn’t an easy moment. But still I liked it, sensorially, it was glorious: colors, smells, humidity, rotten wood, dying insects, stunning colors all around, loud cracing leafs on the street. I also enjoyed that the routines from the new scholar year were now set into place until June. Going to my dear kind neighbour after school and having a snack and cool manual activity while grey and rainy outside, TV shows on the evenings ; maths and dance lessons, the precious moments spent playing alone into my room. Family dinners, before the divorce, then dinners with my mum and sibling. Mom cooking always the same things to us, just because she sucked at cooking and also because of the induced confort of repetitive routine. People with Asperger’s have often food routines, wich can be very eliminative. Soups, croque-monsieur and gnocchis. The strong feeling of being protected while at home contrasting to the disturbing one of being weak at shool. But invicible besides of nature falling asleep and dying slowly. Remembrance that I too, gonna die someday, even if I’ve been ables to totally accept and process that only at 25 (before that I would be concerned and sad only about my loved ones, idea of my own death would remain an abstract mystery).
Now I honour that season, and I live space for that strong feeling of mystery to express and grow. I wanna understand and keep in touch with the unknown and the unseen, and I think it’s the best time of the year to question and cultivate that. I always loved darkness. Now I discovered about Shadow Work, I have a tool to explore hidden aspects of my psyche (shadow working with tarot works brilliantly!). It’s the moment you decide (or not) to try and work with forces, set intentions and work on manifest them. I definitely give more place to ritual and meditation at fall. And this year is all about studying: spirituality, mindfulness, tarot. I need to learn and write. I’m gonna open an etsy shop at Spring 2018 where I will sell my photos (shown on my instagram @flowersbecomesscreens) and will propose Tarot readings, in French only at first and then in English as soon as I feel comfortable enough to do so. I’ve been into a deep and pretty long process of healing and now and I feel I am ready to transmit tips and advices in order to help people to do so with the help of tarot. I’m also gonna keep on with my youtube channel. If you arrived at this point of my post then I thank you :) and you must know I’m gonna write more personnal “blogging” stuff on this platform. Personnal thoughts, spirituality, self development and tarot related posts I guess.
So yeah I’m baack home :D
