PSA: Do what you’ve got to do
Here’s a little overview of my life: I am the Oldest daughter my parents have, I got pregnant at 20, became a single mom at the age of 21, I started my first business at 22 and I’m currently cleaning dishes at a local restaurant to feed me and my son.
You know what’s wild about it all? I still believe I am fortunate, because there at people hooks on street drugs, unemployed, who can’t have children, who don’t have a support system and the worst kind of plague of all. The plague of a “I don’t give a f**k” attitude.
My parents loveeeee me! I used to think they were evil but I see now that they were only preparing me to leave the nest.
My average day consist of watching Cocomelon with my son, designing content, at least 15 minutes of verbal abuse from my child’s father, and trying to figure out new ways to make money so that I can:
1) provide my son with food, shelter, clothes, clean-drinking water, safety and education
2) feed, clothe myself, quit my disgusting habit of smoking cigarettes, set up a gym membership and diet properly so that I can lead a healthy example for my son and go back to college to further my education
3) Give back to the same community that has supported me and my family for the past 13+ years. My ideas are volunteer work, start a community garden (which requires me to have land of my own) or just donate 10% to charity.
However, I am still a work in progress and just learning how to live with purpose in a world that keeps telling me I have to live like the other 98% of its populations.
Work now. My former workplace closed down due to the Covid-19 microscopic invasion which lead me to have to apply to NAU to assist me with rent and food bill. That was going well for 3 months until I started to have a personal crisis “This money is going to run out and my son’s going to starve”- which by the way has been the only fuel I have been running on since March cause love and support has become foreign with the father of my son. Any way, I applied at Foster’s, Buy Smart, 13 different positions in Government, C.U.C, Mail Boxes Etc, Saxon and Kirk Market. I got called in for interviews with a handful of those companies but never got a call back.
As time went by, I became so uneasy that I would fail to give my son everything he needs so I reached out to a friend “hey, do you need any help at your place” he gave me a trial day then next thing I know I’m post up handling his cash (which by the way- still surprises me!). I loved working for him so much I asked if he has anymore work for me?
He said he’d let me know. I prayed for something to come up. Laying with nothing but Jesus in my heart cause there’s no space in my heart for the fear that life tries to feed me.
Literally the next day, after almost loosing hope my friend comes back to me. “Hey Fani, I have an opening but it’s for cleaning dishes...” My heart nearly exploded. I’m like “I AM GAME!”
I didn’t care that it was dishes. I get to work an honest living while building a brand I feel that women and young ladies want.
Moral of the story: Keep a positive attitude, no matter what you’re going through and keep the faith cause the creator hasn’t given up on you.
Today’s mantra: God has made me a Mountain.