Does anyone else cope with adversity by turning it into lore? Like if I can find meaning in the suffering it suddenly hurts less. This then creates a cycle of being okay with the suffering. Like when I had drug problems I just romantasized the fuck out of it same for toxic traits of mine.
Usually though if I feel shitty I just do drugs though.
The abilify is kicking in and I feel numb and bored and it makes me want to bang my head against the wall and do drugs. Fuck this bullshit med and all other d2 antagonists. Me and the voices low-key are pretty tender and caring towards each other and at this point the abilify makes us fight more but my family still wants me on it. /:












