I can't. I can't do this anymore.
I'm so over feeling crappy about myself, I'm so over feeling like if I go for run I'm being judged, I'm just so over it.
So as of Monday I am going to run every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Along with that I am going to start over the 30 Day Shred. And on the days I don't run I am going to try to talk my dog on a walk.I know I should start today, which is why I am going to go for a run, but if I start today I will already have to skip tomorrow because I am going to be in Toronto literally all day, so I won't have time.
The last time I did the 30 Day Shred I didn't see any results which was really what made me discouraged. But this time I'm adding running/walking for at least 30 minutes everyday and this time I'm really gonna try hard with eating better. I need to because I just can't bare to see the number on the scale continue to rise.
So I'm done. I'm done feeling like shit, I'm done thinking what others think of me matters, I'm done. Time to do this for me and not give two fucks what others think of me while I do it!
















