moving along
non-idol!yu jimin x fem!reader
synopsis: part of ❓
wc: 2.3k
"what's your problem?!"
"you're the problem, y/n."
jimin regretted saying those words, back then and even now. the argument that lasted five minutes felt like five hours but that was all it took to crumble down the perfect relationship you thought you had.
jimin knew she was the one who fucked your relationship up but her senseless pride didn't want to admit it. knowing the fact that you wouldn't come back to her again, not that night, not anymore.
but still she waited for your calls for weeks end, graphing texts to your chat only for her to hastily delete it, hoping you were the one who reached out to her first. although jimin did send out a few messages on some drunk occasions, it didn't really matter anyway since you couldn't see them.
jimin slumped into the bed as she reached for her phone on the night table, occasionally wincing from the head pain, starting to sober up the little hangover from last night's drinking adventures.
it's been months since jimin broke up with you but her mind was only flooded with you. caressing the pillow on the other side of the bed, that used to be yours. she swears she can still smell the scent of you from time to time.
making her way downstairs, she reminisces the times where you would be cooking breakfast for the both of you in the kitchen. how jimin wishes she could still hold your hands and wrap her arms around your frame and give you kisses, living in a world where the two of you lived happily together.
jimin misses everything about you. she slouches on the couch as that thought floats about her head for the ninth time that day. she misses the way your eyes form crescents when you smile, the way you hug her, compliment her, how caring you were, the way the words baby, my love rolled out of your mouth, how you were so kind towards other people, how easily everyone finds you likeable-
how everyone finds you likeable. too likeable.
jimin scrolled through her social media recently, like she does every once in a while and she had randomly come across a picture of you and another girl. the space between the two of you was a little too close for comfort for jimin. seol yoona was it? she confirmed her assumption when she clicked on the tags, scanning through the comments.
jimin remembers you mentioning about yoona before. part of your friend group and someone who jimin had to 'watch out' for. jimin scowls at the remembrance that yoona had confessed to you as a joke at a party before. or was it a joke?
she knows she isn't in the position to feel that there was anything wrong even if the two of them had something going on between them. but why- just why does her heart feel shattered? she feels torn, stinged like a splinter that she couldn't take out. all the rage, anger and hurt inside her boiling with the thought resurfacing every now and then. she knows she shouldn't be feeling like that. she doesn't have the right to.
the thought that you might have already moved on from her, but not only that as you could already possibly be together with yoona etches a frown on jimin's face.
she hates this feeling, utterly.
jimin clicks her tongue, rolling her eyes as she sends a few messages to her friends. it was going to be another long night of alcohol for jimin.
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"why the sudden meet up?" aeri questions jimin when she's settled in to the space next to her.
"did you downed all of this already?" yeji asked, holding a bottle in each hand from the opposite side of the booth.
"thanks for coming, guys." jimin talked with a slight slur. "there's no specific reason... i just... wanted to drink." jimin sighed as she lied through her teeth, hoping her friends would take the bait, but of course she knew her friends were smarter than that.
"you called us out... just to drink? don't lie jimin, we know you better than that." ryujin protested, her sharp gaze always making jimin feel like she couldn't fly a lie pass the short-haired girl.
"i'm just-" jimin was still at least half sober, she couldn't get the words out of her throat as she took another bottle and downed a few gulps, "just... missing someone today..."
the other three girls throw each other a knowing glance as yeji sighed, "jimin. is this about y/n again?"
"ah ah ah, let's not mention her name, shall we?" jimin's face glowers, downing the remaining half of the bottle.
is it bad that i'm hoping that you're broken
is it bad that i'm wishing you're still broken
that you haven't found fish in the ocean
"how is she?" jimin is the first one who breaks, after what it seemed like five minutes of silence. she knows why her friends don't answer her questions about you. you were their friend too and they knew jimin had done it wrong big time.
"is she dating someone else?"
another five minutes seem to go by and nobody wants to give jimin an answer, that is until aeri breaks.
"she just looks fine. at least to me. in the least, she isn't crying about you anymo-"
"aeri, you do not know that." yeji cuts off the japanese girl and sends a fierce glare to her.
"i know. i know." aeri defends herself as she hold her arms up, "i just- wanna help them."
"you're not helping them in any way by doing this, aeri. this is their problem to solve. not ours." yeji emphasized, before turning to jimin, "look jimin, the two of you are our friends. i love you but i can't understand why do you care so much about her anyways? weren't you the one who broke things up with her?"
"i know! i know. i know i'm the stupid one. i know i'm the one who ended things. and now i'm the one regretting it but i can only blame myself... i just... don't know why i couldn't admit it earlier. i keep thinking about her, it's gonna make me go crazy." jimin buries her head in her hands as the other three girls watched her sob to herself.
although yeji knew better than to feel sorry, she couldn't help but to feel bad for jimin. as much as she loved seeing the both of you when you were a couple, there had to be a reason why the two of you split apart. yeji had always been there for you. she knows jimin is her friend too, but she wanted to tear jimin apart for breaking your heart. she had watched you cry and sob and scream into your pillow, whenever you looked back at the memories you and jimin shared. as much as she could understand that you missed jimin dearly, she couldn't understand why you would still hold onto your love for her. the amount of heartbreak she felt while looking at you is something she swore to ryujin she would never make her go through.
as her gaze falls upon ryujin, the said girl tapped on her arm, "i think jimin fell asleep."
"let's go guys." yeji said as she stood up from her seat. "we'll send you home, aeri."
"what about jimin?" aeri asked. "is it safe to leave her here like this?"
"don't worry, i've already arranged for someone to take her home."
"oh, alright."
to: y/n come to XXX bar, jimin is drunk. could you send her home? i know you still care about her and this might be a wrong decision i'm making. but i know you need answers. although a drunk jimin isn't the best option, it's all i can offer you. if you don't want to, it's fine.
from: y/n okay. i'll be there in 15.
from: y/n thank you, yeji.
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you winced at the smell of alcohol once you had stepped foot into the bar. you never really liked alcohol in general neither were you a person who liked going to these kind of places. the things you do for jimin. were you going to tell yeji you actually needed to take five minutes of deep breaths outside the bar before entering because you were nervous to see jimin again? absolutely not. you didn't know why you were so nervous for. you were just going to bring jimin home, settle her down and you're back home, end of the night.
it's been months since you last seen jimin. you always thought she'd come around and tell you to come back after you left her house that day. but the day never came. that day. a day you didn't want to remember but it's forever etches in your mind that you couldn't forget.
what made you so angry that day? what were the two of you arguing about? what made jimin say that you were the problem? why did she say that? these questions floated in your head for months as you tried reaching out to her, searching for the answers to your questions. but to no avail, she blocked you.
you sigh as you spot jimin, sprawled all over the table.
it's been months, and yet, this woman was still pulling at your heartstrings. why was it so hard to let this woman go and just continue on with your life?
come on y/n. just send the girl home and on her way. then you'll go home once again like nothing happened.
you grabbed one of her arm and slinged it around your neck, trying to get her to stand up, "come on, jimin. let's go home."
"yeji?" jimin slurred, "is that you?" as jimin brought her face closer to yours to get a closer look.
you winced again as you could smell the alcohol from her breath, "yes. it's me. let's go."
the car ride to jimin's place was nothing special. just jimin murmuring a few mutters and you trying to keep your heart intact from jumping out of your chest, reminding yourself that she was the one who had broke your heart and made you feel sorrow.
"jimin, we're here."
with no response, you shift to her side and release the buckle.
"jimin." you try waking her up again, tapping her on the shoulder.
which seemed to work as jimin got up from her slumber for a short moment, still not recognizing that it's you and not yeji.
"yeji, could you help me to the room? my feet feel funny."
you wanted to break a smile as you walked over to the passenger's side of the car. jimin was just goofy as always, just like you remember her to be.
while walking up the stairs, you could feel jimin's face rested against your neck. "yeji... why do you smell like y/n...?"
keeping your silence, you opened the door to her room, as you admired the small area. it was just like you remembered it, where jimin placed her headsets, the clothes she liked to wear as you continue glancing around the room, the photo she took for the both of you was still pasted on the wall.
you felt jimin's hand on the back of your neck, "y/n. i know it's you. this perfume... is yours."
you didn't want to turn around to face jimin. especially not when she had already recognized you.
"y/n... please... can you give me one more chance? please don't be with her... i missed you... so much." you could feel yourself shivering as jimin whispered those words into your ear, wrapping her arms around your waist.
"it's not that easy jimin. do you know how long have i been trying to get an answer from you? you always close up to yourself. was it me that was in the wrong? do you know how long have i been thinking to myself, maybe i was in the wrong, but i never knew what was i in the wrong for." you pull jimin's arms away and you turned to look at her.
"i love you, y/n."
"i don't need that right now, jimin. what i need are answers. how are we going to fix the problem, how am i going to fix my problem if i don't know what the problem is?"
jimin cups your cheek with one hand, then the other. without saying anything, she dives for it. holding your cheeks tight, pulling you into a desperate kiss, her lips moving sloppily against your frozen ones.
this is not what you want, she's under the influence.
you push her shoulders away, "you can't just break my heart and then try to mend it again, jimin. it's broken. saying that you love me or you miss me isn't going to fix the broken pieces."
you bite your lower lip, trying not to tear up in front of jimin.
"i really want us to work out again, y/n." jimin reaches out to grab your hand but you pull away.
"then why? then why didn't you look for me when i left? how do you want us to work out if i can't even see you trying? why do you only know how to say you miss me or you love me when you're drunk?" the tears now falling down from your cheeks, not even caring if jimin sees you crying.
"i promise things will be different this time." jimin tries to reassure you, but you've seen too much to know it.
"you know what, call me when you're sober tomorrow, jimin. if you mean what you say... maybe i'll consider it." you wipe your tears, before leaving jimin behind in her room, without looking back.
"wait y/n, please! stay with me..."
once you reach home, you flopped onto the floor as you sob to your pillow. once again, all alone. all by yourself, knowing that that phone call will never come.
yu jimin broke your heart again.
SORRY i am late but here it is the first part of the poll! sorry if this sucks, i really lost touch and am very rusty :( thank you guys for 500 ❤️
(this one's for @perfectsunlight @rosiehrs)
