#maniaadventures

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Mixed mania mood be like: I'm crying but I'm real excited about it

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Mania + Period = ultimate moodswings

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me: i should skip my meds; then I'll be happy forever!!!

everyone in my surroundings including me: nooooooooo

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when you know you are going manic but can't bring yourself to care

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me: wow I feel so much better; I'm happy; I can paint; maybe the doctors right and I'm stable

me at me: skip your meds. do something bad. something you'll regret. scare everyone you know with your behaviour

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thanks to my doctor I now have to ask myself

am I faking the mania? is it just stress? am i really vibrating or just hallucinating that i am? i am really hallucinating or am I hallucinating that I'm hallucinating? am i just hypomanic with delusions? am i just making everything up?

or am I actually manic and it's just that no one believes me?

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Bipolar disorder - a poem

Sometimes it feels like i am drowning in my head.

Or like I’m lost.

In a giant labyrint

With endless corridors

And no exist.

Sometimes it feels like it’s all to much.

All the “shouldn’t”’s

“You shouldn’t be awake at 3 AM”

“You shouldn’t have to take so much medicine”

“You shouldn’t be so worried”

“You shouldn’t be so sad”

There are a lot of things that “shouldn’t”

I shouldn’t have been so alone

I shouldn’t have been so scared

I shouldn’t have hurt so much

They shouldn’t, I shouldn’t, it shouldn’t

But it did.

Being bipolar

I’m sorry – no

Having bipolar disorder

Is a lot like being handcuffed to a hurricane

And all you can do

Is being dragged around

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me after sleeping 8 hours for once: huh maybe my mania's over

me literally an half an hour later: v i b r a t i n g