Something is going on with me. I have no motivation, no energy, no desire to do anything. I want to literally do nothing. To stop working and just chill. Get high and drunk all day is what I'd do if I could. Literally don't know why. My family is here and that's great. My job is easy going... But I'm not sure I feel like I'm wasting time. It's so hard to be 100% certain in anything. Work, relationships, friendships. All so malleable. Summer is in and I want to enjoy it, man. But how spoiled and entitled can I be already? I had over a month in the DR. Maybe it's because none of my friends where really there. All abroad or still in school. Then they go and visit when I leave. Sucks to suck. I wish I had gone there now as opposed to when I did. Just salty I suppose. Work hours are dumb because I never get weekends off. Don't get to see anybody. Idk do I even want to do what I'm doing? For someone so lazy I sure went and picked something demanding. Anyways, just feeling annoyed and sort of angry. Bit sad too.