Sorry just thinking of your strattland au where stratt is grace's mom and thinking about how horrific the abandonment issues and betrayal must feel from Grace's perspective. Mothers supposedly being the people who will love you thw most and protect you from harms way in any circumstance only for it to be violated in such a horrific way when Grace gets kidnapped. Like was he a bad son was he not good enough? Did he just grow up and out of her interest once he was an independent adult?
Sorry au so good it drives me insane. Chewing at the bars of my cage
YEAAHHHH YOU GET ME THIS IS EXACTLY THE ANGST I WAS HOPING FOR
because god it's hard enough when they're friends, when stratt is someone grace admires and wants to be closer to, but having that bond already? especially a maternal bond, where as you said, she's supposed to be protecting and taking care of him? ouuugghh it's just so. IT'S JUST SO.......
(this got long so under a cut we go weee)
not to stick the knife in a little more, but i can't help but picture this au as one where, for whatever reason, she ended up not keeping and raising him herself, and it's by random chance that she realizes that he's one of the few people genuinely qualified to work on this project and reunites with him. already, there's a lot of hurt and guilt and complicated feelings--in my mind, he knows about their relation, it's hard not to when her face triggers memories he thought he long since buried, so he's already on shaky ground with her from the beginning. she left him, abandoned him, and only now is she coming back for him, now that he's useful to her? the anger boiling in his stomach makes him nauseous, even if he's trying to push it aside for the sake of humanity. it hurts to know your own mother sees you as just another asset, even if she is being achingly gentle about it.
of course, in eva's mind, he's more than just an asset to her, and that's why she had to leave, because this attachment is dangerous. she's very pragmatic, after all, and i think she'd convinced herself that it would be better off for the both of them if grace was kept by a family who could actually look after him and love him the way she can't afford to, since she's always been too headstrong, too ambitious to settle down. the choice hurt her too, but it doesn't hit her how much it hurt grace until they're on the same ship and she gets the full brunt of the pain and anger and desperation in his eyes pointed right at her. he's trying to keep his want for her under wraps, but it's practically bleeding out of him in every small interaction they have. and, well, eva has a soft side, deeply buried within her in an attempt to make this hellish job easier, but it's still there, longing to reach out. and unfortunately for her, seeing grace again--seeing her son, her baby--is definitely making it a lot harder to keep it contained.
at this point, she thinks she's only going to lose him via her prison sentence, the one she's already planning on escaping from when the time is right--around thirty years, when the beetles come back--so she has no reason to think their next parting will be forever. and grace is so--well, he's funny and kind and brilliant, and he jokes and banters with her in spite of the unbearable amount of hurt he's carrying, still reaching out for her after all this time, and it's hard to hold herself back from reaching out in turn, in spite of everything. he's everything she could've dreamed of him being and more, but with a heavy sadness and the weight of the world on his shoulders, and when she looks at him, it's hard not to see the sunny, chubby faced toddler who used to cling to her side and sing songs while she worked and cried and cried and cried on the horrible day she left him. he's so easy to love. too easy.
it's unfortunate but inevitable that she quickly gets attached to him again, and in spite of her best efforts, it's really obvious in the way she treats him. she knows an ice cream machine and silly t-shirts and letting him be second in command on her most important project yet is not nearly enough to make up for all those lost years, but she can't help herself. grace is angry with her, of course he is, but he also has been longing to see her again, and he's very open about it, whether he wants to be or not. it breaks her heart to see the way he melts under her praise and clings to even the briefest of touches, and god, she wants nothing more than to give him everything she can. she can't lose sight of the mission, she can never, but.......what's the harm in indulging for a bit? she missed him too, more than she realized until she saw his precious face again, so maybe for a brief time, they can pretend--
--and then the lab blows up and they can't pretend anymore, because she just lost several key people needed for her mission and it's with a sinking stomach that she realizes that the only person here who's qualified as a replacement for the mission is her baby, her gracie, who's only just started to open up to her again. who looks up at her with cautious affection, who's gotten comfortable being at her side like he's belonged there all along, because he has belonged there all along.
but humanity is at risk. she knows the stakes, and grace knows them as well, though she knows that won't be enough for him to forgive her for this next betrayal. and it's while she holds him as he weeps into her shoulder, fear and grief overtaking him and turning him back into the child she'd left long, long ago that she makes her decision.
it's going to break her. it's going to break him too, once the amnesia starts to wear off, because those memories can't be held back forever. but it's the only thing she can do to give humanity even a chance at survival, and she's going to do it, even if he hates her forever. even if he never forgives her. even if she's never going to see him again, knowing he's doomed the minute she puts him on that spaceship.
she holds him a little tighter and prays for his safety, wallowing in the guilt she knows she deserves. it's going to be hard, the hardest thing she's ever done since leaving him the first time, but it's what she has to do. his fate is with the stars, she tells herself, and he's going to do so well and be so good, because she knows how special and smart and capable he is, even when he doesn't. he's going to make her so fucking proud, she knows it. she tries to comfort herself with those thoughts, her own eyes stinging. she should've known she wouldn't be allowed to keep him forever.
the mission comes first, in the end. she's doing what's best for them all, really. it's just really hard to believe that when he slots into her arms so perfectly, making her feel complete for the first time in decades.
may god forgive me for what i've done, she thinks, the metaphorical knife already in her hand. he's all i have to give.
If trans men are victims of misogyny does that mean that trans women aren't? Are they victims of misandry? Does misandry exist? Are they misogynists themselves?
no trans men and trans women are both victims of misogyny because trans men and trans women are not opposites because men and women are not opposites and acting like they are is gender essentialist and exorsexist as fuck
I feel that if Chappell was truly the innocent part in this story she would try to offer some sort of reparations to the child since she got yelled at in her name even, allegedly, without Chappell's knowledge or endorsement. A backstage meet and greet or free tickets to a concert, perhaps. That's what I'd do if I learned a child was left traumatized by a large man because of me. We're supposed to believe that what allegedly happened was bad enough that Chappell having nothing to do with it is a relief while, simultaneously, that she would have done nothing wrong if she did it. That she didn't even try to pretend she felt sorry for the kid and was smirking through her video makes it obvious she did that and is not sorry.
anon you've literally voiced my exact thoughts on this thank you 🙏 it's the callousness that really does her in! if i was in her place i would've been fucking mortified and done anything i could to make it right, and i know a lot of other people (famous or otherwise) would've done the same because that's what you do when a child is hurt in your name, even if it's not technically "your" fault! it's not asking too much for her to express some remorse, real remorse for what happened, and yet her fans are acting like doing so is somehow unfair emotional labor that's placed on her solely because she's a Woman:tm: and not because she's someone with a huge platform in a position of power who already has a tenuous relationship with her fans! her immediate jump to playing the blame game only makes her look more like an asshole who cares more about her own reputation than the fact that a security guard unfairly targeted an eleven year old girl, people are right to think that this makes her look bad, and they're right to not want to support her when she's made it clear where her priorities lie!
“Ooo actor mark is evil” “ooo actor mark is a villain” have yall considered he’s not tho
Also kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him kisse-
HE'S LITERALLY NOT HE'S JUST A HURT ANGRY MAN BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF BY AN EVIL HOUSE ENTITY #EVERYWKMCHARACTERISNUANCED #WECANHOLDHIMACCOUNTABLEWITHOUTDEMONIZINGHIM #JUSTICEFORACTORMARK #GETTHATMANHISREDEMPTIONARC
also to add onto your second point: kisses him kisses him kisses him kisses him cuddles him gives him the love he deserves and needs to heal i love you actor i love you
liisten i tried to be cool with all rpf that isn't about like rapists and murderers and people who have proven to have abused the person they're getting shipped with, but this het rpf ship is driving me insane because how weirdly obsessed with the male actor's girlfriend and proving that the actress they ship him with hates the girlfriend and that the girlfriend is getting cheated on.
BROOOOO i fucking hate that shit so much 😭 i feel your pain friend it's not the exact same thing but i was fighting for my life in the severance fandom because of how many people wanted adam scott to cheat on his Real Life Wife with britt lower it was crazy. people were speculating and actively wishing for this like it wouldn't be a fucking terrible thing for him to do??? why would you want him to get with britt this way it's such a shitty thing to wish on anyone??? heterosexuals need to be banned from rpf shipping until they can stop being cisheteronormative and crazy misogynistic about it because this should not be something that keeps happening i s2g
Do you know Adeem the Artist? He's one of my favorite country singers with the right takes! I saw him open for the mountain goats and he's very funny and talented
(i looked them up and it looks like they actually use they/them pronouns now so just letting you know! ^-^)
i have not heard of them but omg i definitely have to check them out!! just looking at the google results and their website i already love their vibe lol. it's always so exciting to see queer country music artists and i'm so delighted by the tyler childers mention in their website bio because that's the exact kinda thing i'm looking for........i love tyler childers's music and i love country that innovates and progresses the genre while still respecting its roots, it's so nostalgic for me while still bringing something new to the genre and it's so good 🥹 thank you so much for the rec!! :D
