FANFIC: Before I go... (KBTBB) -
REQUEST by b________s:
“Do you know about the hanahaki disease in which the victim coughs up flower petals when they suffer from one-sided love. It ends when the beloved returns their feelings (romantic love only; strong friendship is not enough), or when the victim dies. How about mc having this condition because she thought that it was a one sided love from her to eisuke. Can you make this angsty please because I love to see a desperate eisuke”
I am really sorry for the late story..!!
Yes, I have heard of it and the story idea, sounds so Eisuke!! No lie- I actually enjoyed writing this one a little too much. I haven’t been this excited for a fanfic for a while so, Yippy!! Plus, I got to build off the MC a little more to be brave and dramatic more.
MAIN: Eisuke = Doctor | MC = Middle Class Family Wealth
TIMELINE: Edo Era in Japan - 1800′s
CONTAINS SMUT** Please read with Caution.
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Another day has come.
I hear the birds chirping as I open my eyes.
“I’m still alive,” with a low voice.
Turning my head towards the window to see birds outside flying. I finally sit up on my bed and see that Spring is almost here. The buds on the sakura’s are finally blooming and it makes me wonder if I will last that long. I suffer from special disease called, “Hanahaki,” which has been said to curse victims in this town randomly and I happen to be a long term victim of this curse. It started when I noticed my feelings for a particular man in the town which I didn’t even know I had feelings for. I thought that I have been in love before but apparently, I have not like this.
**Knock knock**
“Yes,” I sit up straight.
“______,” mother calls, “Doctor Eisuke is here to check up on you this morning.”
ALREADY?! It’s barely noon?! I start to feel the heat rise in my body and look at my hands to see sakura petals on my skin. Another attack? Already..?! I start to feel my chest tightening and before I can reply, the door slams open.
“_____!!!” Eisuke calls out to me.
“Ei-,” before I can finish his name, he pushes me down and frantically looks for the medicine.
“_____...!”
I look over to see my mother’s panicked face. I smile trying to ease her but I feel like I’m just making her feel worse with my attack happening.
“Here,” Eisuke leans over and gives me the pill to eat.
I try my hardest to take it but I can feel my throat swelling and I cough it right out of my mouth.
Hearing my mother weep, I try to sit up but before I could, Eisuke leans in and kisses me. I can feel his tongue opening my mouth and as I did, a gush of liquid came rushing in that tasted bitter. I gulped it down as his tongue wandered inside my mouth playing with my tongue. As I slowly reciprocate the feeling of his tongue inside my mouth, I can feel the medicine working and my attack is slowly going away.
Eisuke pulls away slowly from out mouth to mouth contact, the tip of our tongues pull away, and I can feel the heat in my cheeks rising.
“Feel better,” as his hand reaches to touch my cheeks.
Nodding in confirmation, I lean my head into his hand, closing my eyes wishing this moment never ends. This is the man I long for. This feeling inside me keeps growing as we spend more time together even if it is just these simple and normal check ups. I start to doze off from this feeling and fell asleep. Hours Later, I finally wake again.
I didn’t even get to spend time with Eisuke today.
I make my way down the hall and hear my mother and father laughing. I rush over wondering if we had company or relatives visiting. As soon as I turn the corning, I see Eisuke sitting across from my parents at the table.
“Eisuke,” I exclaimed surprise and happy.
“_____,” gesturing me over to her side.
As I walk over, my father starts to speak.
“_____, after talking to Doctor Ichinomiya about your condition and how it is worsening, we thought it might be best if you went to stay with him for the time being.”
I cannot help but be shocked at what my father proposed.
“To be honest,” Eisuke says as I turn my head his way, “I am the one who offered them the idea since your attacks are happening more frequently nowadays.”
“_____,” my mother grabs my hand, “What do you say?”
I look down and start to think.
It’s not like I want to die and to think that Eisuke is willing to go this far to try to save my life. We all know it is only a matter of time before I subcome to this disease knowing that my love will never be returned as the man before probably doesn’t have any romantic feelings towards me. To make my parents not worry, I agree to these terms and start to pack few of my things to take with me. It’s been 2 weeks living at the Ichinomiya House and my attacks have reduced to happening only once every 2-3 days. From what Eisuke said, the only known way to cure this disease is if I get the one I desire romantically to return my feelings for me. Of course, he asked me who it was and I couldn’t tell him that it was him. We have been arguing about this personal matter since the day I came because I started to feel more of an experiment now than a patient for him.
But as the days passed these past couple of weeks, I came to understand a little more about Eisuke. Wither every small bicker, we tend to learn more about each other and I cannot help but fall for him more a little everyday. I was okay with him not returning my feelings since I got to spend these past 2 weeks in bliss. Even the smallest interaction made me happy.
It was the afternoon of week 3 and I finished cleaning the dishes.
“_____,” Eisuke calls me from his office, “Coffee.”
I rush over to the kitchen and make him his coffee. This is the only task I get from him throughout the day. Apparently, I make very good coffee? I never made this ‘coffee’ until I came to this house. I wonder if it is ‘good’ coffee as he claims?
As I finish, I slowly grab the cup and walk carefully to his office.
Knocking on his door, he gestures me to come in.
“Here you are Eisuke,” Happily.
“You need to be more efficient next time,” taking the cup out of my hand, “Still too slowly at making coffee.”
“Well,” pouting, “I am still new at this ‘coffee’ making so you will have to make due with whatever time I bring you coffee.”
As I turn away, Eisuke grabs me by the waist pulling me in. Unbalanced, I fall back and land on his lap.
I feel the heat in my face rise as I sit on Eisuke’s Lap.
“_____.”
I dare not to look at him.
“Daily check up.”
Turning my head, I finally make eye contact with Eisuke, and I feel nothing but embarrassed. I was way over my head thinking something else. “Hey Mr. Doctor~!”
I try to get up and leave but Eisuke has me held down with one arm. How strong can this man be with one arm?
“Get out Baba,” Eisuke scolds.
“Come on,” as he walks in from the terrace, “I was just coming by to check on the little princess you hold captive in your castle.”
“You cannot be mad at anyone but yourself for this Eisuke,” Soryou proclaims as he makes his was inside as well.
“Good Afternoon everyone,” I say shyly as I am held against my will on Eisuke’s Lap.
“Aww,” Ota says sarcastically, “Showing affection so early in the day are we Eisuke?”
“Can you please stop,” Officer Mamoru says, “It’s weird.”
Eisuke gets up with me in his arm carrying me as he walks away.
“Dare to follow me and you’ll know the consequences,” he announces. As he walks carrying me, I start to tell Eisuke to put me down.
“Your request has been denied.”
As we make it to Eisuke’s Bedroom, He closes the door behind him and puts me down on the bed.
“Wha-,” before I could finish.
“Check up,” as he takes out an extra pair of stethoscope from his night stand.
“Oh,” looking down at the floor, “Right.”
As I start to undo my obi a bit, I can feel Eisuke’s eyes staring at me. I’ve never been more embarrassed and shy doing a check yet until today. Knowing that we are in his bedroom just makes the blood rush to my head. As I start to dwell on this feeling, my breathing becomes irregular and my chest starts to tighten.
“An attack,” as Eisuke grabs a hold of me.
“I’m... sorry,” I try to hold myself up.
Eisuke lays me down on the bed and I start to grab my chest as I feel the pain swelling up. Something’s different about this attack. I can feel it. It feels deeper like someone stabbed me in the lungs as I gasp for air.
I see Eisuke above me as he leans in and kisses me. This is only the second time we’ve done this since the day I left home. I can feel the liquid flowing in as his tongue dives into my mouth. I shyly pull back but it doesn’t stop Eisuke from forcing himself gently down on me.
As our tongue start to slowly dance and feel each other, I start to feel a little bit of weight off my chest but it still hurts. No sooner does Eisuker pull away from my lips to see that the sakura markings are still on my skin.
“Are you still having an attack?”
“I don’t know,” as I look at my hands, “What’s happening to me?”
“Maybe,” as he slowly leans in towards me.
I have no idea what is going on but before I could speak, Eisuke’s hands start to caress the sides of my body, completely taking apart my obi while placing his head in-between my neck. I start to arch my back when I feel Eisuke’s lips kissing my neck gently at the same time as his hands make contact with my skin on my chest. I can feel the bottom of my stomach throbbing he slowly starts to caress my breast with his large hands. I can’t take this anymore so I try to wiggle my way out and Eisuke starts to chuckle lifting his head out of my neck.
“Where are you going?” Smirking down on me.
Frantically panting, I answer panically, “I don’t know,” as my eyes start to water, “But this is too much for me..!”
As I start to close my eyes, I hear Eisuke say, “Not enough you mean?”
No sooner, does his lips meet mines. Our kiss deepens as our tongues dancing violently with each other like we have never done this before. His hands slowly cups my breast, gently massaging, making me yelp.
“Ah,” moaning inside our breathe from all the kissing, “...Eisu-,” cutting me off with a forcefully kiss covering my mouth.
My legs start to twist as the throbbing gets deeper.
Pulling away from the kiss, I yelp, “No more” trying to push him away, “Please..!”
I feel Eisuke’s stop, pulling away from every inch of my body.
“You marks are gone,” he says walking towards the doors and out.
I lay their wondering what was happening to me before making my way out the bedroom joining the guys out on the terrace.
The next days, I wake up to find Eisuke missing. He left me note on the dining table stating that he went to go find the special herb for my disease with the guys in the mountain and won’t be back until the late evening. With that said, I decided to do some cleaning in the house.
It’s been 4 days since he left and I only had on attack since his trip. It wasn’t crazy and very mild. My medicine is almost out so I pray for their soft return soon since I do not know when my next attack will be.
I hear ruckus outside the terrace and I see the guys coming.
“Welcome back,” I exclaimed.
Overjoyed, Baba says, “I’m back my wife,” while running towards me.
Before I jumped back, someone from behind says, “Don’t touch what’s mines.”
Baba immediately stops in his tracks and I see Eisuke standing behind him with a frown. Baba tells Eisuke that it was just a joke and that he should lighten up. I start to laugh as this goes on. Slowly, everyone starts to go home for the night as I finish cleaning and I hear Eisuke call for me.
“_____. Come to my office.”
I stop in my tracks and start heading to his office.
“Yes Eisuke,” peeking in questioning him.
“We didn’t find anymore of the herb to make more of your medicine with to suppress the effects of the hanahaki. Whatever we have is the last of it,” he says in a low grunge voice.
I don’t dwell too much as I knew that it was a long shot to begin with. I march over to EIsuke, answering with a smile, “Thank you for trying to find more and for everything.”
Eisuke looks at me confused and angry, “Why are you not mad?”
“There is nothing to be mad about,” I calmly try to say.
While Eisuke gets frustrated, I grab his hand and tell him, “I knew it was wishful thinking that this medicine was going to last me a lifetime,” trying to hold back my tears, “But I’m glad that I got to meet you and the guys before I go.”
“DON’T MESS WITH ME!!”
Grabbing my hand in return, Eisuke stands up and starts dragging me to his bedroom. Once we enter, he tosses me on the bed. Confused, I try to sit up but I was too slow as Eisuke is on top of me in bed.
“Eisuke...?” I can see the irritation in his facial expression.
His eyes are narrow and his mouth is not frowning but his glare is so intimidating that I just lay there, motionless.
“You,” sighing, “Really think I don’t know who you like?”
I look at him confused as I never really told him since all we did was bicker.
“Just say you love me....”as he glares at me.
My cheeks start to burn as I look dumbfounded. HE KNOWS?! How?! With all my might, I deny it in all possible ways I can by words and action. As I slowly begin to lash out, Eisuke pins one on my arms down by the wrist.
With this sudden action, I stare at him as he leans.
“Just tell me,” he says with a lower husky voice.
Closing my eyes tightly, I shut my mouth as I fear the rejection but then I feel the aching in my chest and then suddenly, I start heaving.
Another attack? Already?! I just had one yesterday and it wasn’t even this strong..!
I grab my chest with my free hand and Eisuke takes no chance. Gettin off, He rushes to grab the medicine and starts to open the bottle. Looking at my hands, the sakura markings are there but darker. They are not the bright pink but a dark dusty pink. The pain starts to build up as it gets harder to gasp for air.
“_____!!!” Eisuke starts to panic.
Staring back at him with whatever conscious I have left, his facial starts to become blurry and then I felt his warmth on my lips.
With little strength I have left, all I feel is Eisuke’s tongue pushing all the liquid inside my mouth. Pulling away, I start to feel light headed but the pain in my chest is still there. Is this the end?
I can breathe but I can also tell my Eisuke’s expression that the markings still haven’t gone away.
“....it’s....okay....” As I try saying with any strength I have left. I can tell he isn’t satisfied with my response so I ask him, “...could I...ask...for....one last... memory...if I...can?”
Grabbing my hand, he just stares at me.
“...please...make me...yo-,” before finishing, I feel Eisuke’s lips on mines give me nothing more than a long kiss with all his warmth.
Slowly, our lips separate and I stare long at Eisuke.
Reaching for my cheek with his hand, I lean towards is hand and place my face into his palm as he caresses my cheek.
“Shut up,” mumbling under his breath as I enjoy the moment. Sitting me up, Eisuke starts to slowly loosen my obi to my kimono from the back. His cool hands brush against my hot shoulders while pulling down my kimono off which makes me moan unconsciously under my breath.
“Look up at me _____.” His voice is lower than usual.
I lift my head up and our eyes meet. Lowering his head down, I start to close my eyes and I feel our lips touch gently repetitively before Eisuke begins eating me whole. As this goes on, my kimono starts to fall off my shoulder. Just the thought of being completely naked in front of Eisuke get the heat rising inside of me. I start to feel the throbbing in-between my legs.
His hands slowly explores my backside up and down making me shiver and moan.
“Ahh,” I cry without holding back.
“I like that sound,” he proclaims as I catch my breath in-between our kisses.
Slowly, I lean back, falling as Eisuke leans on top of me.
“....EIsuke...” Catching my breath.
Climbing on top of me, he steals my breath more kissing me deeply and I wrap my arms around Eisuke’s neck. Pulling away from out deep kiss, Eisuke sits up and stares at my body. Embarrassed, I use my hands and arms to cover my body.
“What are you embarrassed about?” As he starts to take off his top.
“...um, I...” Flustered, “...I know...my body isn’t...”
Eisuke’s hand reaches down grabbing my hand pulling it to his face, kissing the palm, “It’s beautiful,” he says as we both make eye contact.
The heat starts to rise in me and my eyes start to water.
Releasing my hand, “This is not going to be the last time I see your beautiful body.”
I stare up with my blurry eyes, respond, “I don’t even know if I’ll make it after today so maybe it will be.”
Feeling Eisuke’s hands touching my bare body, I freeze from the embarrassment and shyness. Suddenly, my waist up in the air, I screech from my voice.
“Don’t worry,” He says as I feel his breath near my honey pot, “This isn’t going to be the last time.”
As I shyly protest for him to stop, suddenly, I feel his tongue gently gliding along my honey pot, rounding my clit, and making it’s way inside. I can’t hold my voice back anymore as he continues to make me cry in pleasure from his tongue teasing me.
“Eisuke...!! Ahhh,” I try to push his head away from me bottom, “Nmmh... I can’t....!! Ahhhh~!!”
As I keep protesting, He goes deeper inside me with his tongue while teasing my clit with his finger. As I feel the tension rise inside me, I beg him even more to stop.
“Cum for me,” he mumbles as he continues to satisfy me below.
Before long, I submit to the feeling and cum in front of Eisuke’s Face.
Embarrassed and out of breath, I cover my face.
“Are you not going to tell me?’
I uncover my eyes and see that Eisuke is staring back at me. I guess he must be talking about me liking him. I shake my head in response.
Riling Eisuke up, he gets frustrated with by spouting, “If you won’t tell me, then I’ll have your body tell me instead.”
I feel Eisuke’s shaft rubbing me below as it starts to hit my clit as well and I start to arch my back as I can feel my body craving his cock inside me.
“Tell me,” he groans, “that you love me.”
I start to get frustrated as I begin to cave in slowly. I want to tell him but I’m afraid of getting rejected so I bite my tongue and turn my head away.
“Fine,” as he adjusts himself at my entrance, “I’ll force it out of you.”
I feel him spreading me inside and lunges himself deep within me. Gasping for air, I feel the heat of his cock spreading inside of me. It feels so good, it makes me give in to all the pleasure.
“Not yet,” as he thrust me once.
“AHH~!!” I yelp loudly.
“_____,” he says while reaching to my face with his hand.
“Eisuke...”
He leans forward being on top of me while connected. He stares at me while my eyes start to water a bit.
“Just, please... Just tell me...”
I smile back and he just bites his lips and starts thrusting inside me. With each thrust, my mind slowly begins to go blank from all the pleasure. Then, his thrust started getting rougher slowly like he was trying to tell me something. Slowly lifting my waist up, I feel him going deeper inside me and I couldn’t contain my moans anymore.
“Wa-WAIT...! Ahh~, Eisuke!!!”
“......no....”
“Pl-Please..! I’m, I’m begging you...! Ahhhh~!! Mnhhm....!!”
As I feel myself loosing to this feeling, I just bask in it the pleasure.
“I’m cumming...!”
Thrusting inside me aggressively, a big wave of satisfying pleasure comes over me.
“...I...Love you...Eisuke...” I say before I faint.
If this was my last moment, I don’t mind it being with Eisuke, the man I love. I hear birds chirping.
Opening my eyes, “It’s..morning..?”
I feel someone next to me and turn to see Eisuke, Laying there, sleeping. A rush of memories start to flood in my brain as I start to remember what happened last night. I confessed my love to Eisuke.
But if I didn’t die, How am I alive?
Then I start to remember what Eisuke said about the cure... Does he love me?
Slowly, as I try to get off the bed, Eisuke grabs me by the waist pulling me back in bed.
“Ei-Eisuke?!”
“Be quite. I’m still tired.” says pulling me in to cuddle.
“Um, Eisuke...”
Giving me the silent treatment.
“Um,” I try asking nicely, “Do you... Do you love me..?”
I lay there waiting to hear a reply but I get nothing. Then suddenly, he pulls me under him while he is on top. Staring down at me, I stare back.
“You’re alive are you not?”
Wait- is this a trick question? I want to hear him say it... I did last night.
“Do you Eisuke? Do you love me?” I start to doubt it now.
“Ugh...” He starts to sigh. “Really?”
Reaching my hands to hold his face, “Eisuke,” as we stare at each others eyes, “I love you. I love you so much I can di-..!”
Eisuke kisses me to shut me up. I can feel his tongue dancing with mines, ravaging my mouth of any words that may come out. I start gasping for air and push his face off of mines.
“Wa-wait..!”
“_____,” as I stop pushing his face off of mines, “I love you. Don’t go dying without my permission now okay.”
Stunned at his answer, I barely fight back anymore as we lock lips again giving into the wave of pleasure to this love. ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ
Thank you for reading.
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