I've changed a LOT. I used to be really depressed and suicidal, also i would never stand up for myself and i was a door mat to anyone and every one. I also had no confidence at all in myself for anything. I have to say that i would still be like that today if it wern't for Josh. he taught me to like myself and that life is worth living. I have yet to ever have a single thought of hurting myself since the first time i dated him last summer. He has made me a better me. I can stand up for myself now. i dont take other peoples crap as much. im still slightly shy. but im getting better. he has helped me so much in just a year. i dont know what i would do without him. he makes me happy, and i dont even know if he knows just how much he helps me every day just by being there when i need him. Josh, if you read this..., thank you. for every thing. you really are an amazing person. and i hope to always have you in my life in some way or another.