I just need to let it out
I have a lot of disappointments these days. The semester has just ended but for me, it was not a great ending. I have been struggling with my Math 17. But what I am most upset about is that I have to blame myself for it. I cut classes several times. I hated myself for it. I may fail or pass just right.
There is also this constant battle in my mind on what future to take, which path must I walk or goals to set. I'm lost. And it's scary to be.
I'm so afraid of a lot of things at the moment. Whenever I think of DongHo, I can't help but cry and feel scared because I don't know what is happening right now. I just wish he's okay and soon...soon he will be back with his hyungs.
I can take a failure. Even though many will be disappointed... I could handle it. It will make me do better and aim higher. But not you being so distant right now because for all these years I have relied so much on you for strength and inspiration and it hurts me to know that I could not do anything for you but wait.
FIGHTING. DongHo Fighting!