Spirits and spirits. Also math.
Okay, so, I have noticed a few times that if I drink alcohol, I seem to lose my erm, psychic senses (for lack of a better word). Whatever sensations I associate with Presence - can't feel them any more. Doesn't take much; part of a bottle of cider. But suddenly: no more burning/tingling on my arms, no pressure on my cheekbones, nope nothing. (Have never tried while there was a /really strong/ sense of presence; not sure I'd want to. Might be rude, you know? Even if I'm sharing.)
On the one hand, sadface. On the other - if I want to NOT be distracted, and ASKING for a little peace doesn't work (it does sometimes), hey, booze to the rescue! And it's not like I am anywhere near drunk enough at that amount of alcohol to be incapable of doing things usefully and so on.
(I mentioned this to my girlfriend, because I was at her place and we were drinking cider and something dark (hey it turns out I like um I guess it's stouts?) and playing Fluxx, which I think should add to my stash of devotional tools because IT IS SO PERFECT OMG, and she confirmed this about alcohol. And referenced that one scene in "Constantine." Her music collection, put to random, served up some interesting choices relevant to the discussion of paganism we were having this evening.)
Also we talked about mathematics as a language or tool or something that explains the universe and I started wondering about using math for magical purposes. More than just simple numerology, that is. I don't know what that would look like, and while I have a degree in math, I have tried to block most of those memories, but . . . well. Hmm. Never thought that stuff might come in handy. Particular for this sort of application.
I will never be able to see the word "mathemagician" the same way again.