#matkapolka

[majadwornikowska]

Creativity 🖌

Tuesday, October 27th 2020

Today I decided to paint a symbol of #OgólnopolskiStrajkKobiet, because of the recent events in Poland. I am prochoice and I think that our government is way out of line. 

[miss-sawczuk]

From a diary of a working mum...

From a diary of a working mum...

After another restless night, the alarm buzzed at 05:45, but I snooze it until 06:20, as it’s nearly Friday and getting up is a real struggle. Theia decides to wake up with me, which sucks, as I cannot spend an hour in pure silence, but there you are.

My incredibly dramatic and whiney child decides to tantrum through her morning, throwing every option of breakfast straight at me, whilst I make coffee to keep my eyes half open. Don’t get me started on the dog and cat, tangled between my legs, demanding feeding. It wasn’t until 7:00, that I actually got a move on, otherwise I would have fallen asleep on the sofa.

I make Theia’s lunch and pack her nursery bag. Dress her, brush hair, using my phone as an item of bribery, if not, she would go to nursery looking homeless. Encourage to brush teeth. Dress myself, make up, hair. We are out of the door just after 08:00 (first time this week!), I even squeeze in a quick natter with my mother.

Theia is throwing yet another tantrum as at the tender age of nearly 2, she has suddenly lost the use of her legs to get to nursery, so I carry her. If my back could gesticulate, it would show me a prominent middle finger for doing that daily. Theia successfully placed in nursery, so I run home, quick sip of my cold coffee and I’m on my way to work to start at 9.

Work - demanding, eventful, tiring, but in a sick and twisted way, fun as always. By midday, I want to bash my head against the computer and pass out, in hope for a wink of sleep. Three coffee’s later, it’s 17:00, at last! I’m going home. Quick trip to the shop as I ran out of the magical potion of sanity - coffee - and straight to pick up Theia.

Theia was good at nursery, what a relief. No bumps on her head as a result of silly behaviour or time out in the managers office. I bribe her once again, this time with chocolate, to let me carry her home, otherwise she bolts to the park and that’s a shit storm of its own kind, because whatever the weather, swings are life. Get home, another coffee. Coffee doesn’t even scratch the surface anymore; at this point of the day, I strongly consider illegal substances to give me a boost.

I rush downstairs. Start cleaning the kitchen, garden, laundry on, I still haven’t put the dry washing away, but surely it can wait till Christmas? Bathroom cleaned, toilet scrubbed. Hoovered, due to the dog destroying a shoe box, one of my shoes from the charity shop (which cost £3) and various leaflets. Air freshening the living hell out of the house, because it smells of wet dog.

Dinner is nearly ready. I finally take my shoes off and sit down... the clock reads 21:50. I finally sit down, to have my dinner...

So please, don’t question me, when I’m nearly falling asleep at my desk. When I don’t laugh at every single joke or want to engage in social interactions. When I’m tearful for no reason, due to the state I’m in, as I can literally feel the hormones buzzing within me. When I suddenly lose the will to live. When I snap, bite and frown. I’m not asking for admiration, pity or even a gold star. Just understanding. Being a working mum is rough and today is a proof of it. I’m just trying to survive yet another day. Over and out.

Edit:

22:30 - Little footsteps, stomp stomp stomp... somebody is out of bed.

[miss-sawczuk]

Snotty, yet still smiling. Tim pointed out to me yesterday, that we have failed Theia as parents yesterday, and as harsh as it sounds, he’s right. I’ve been so wrapped up with work. I’m a carer, I care for vunerable people. But what about my own vunerable, little human being? I took the day off work on Thursday to look after her and it was a first for me. I never just take a day off, years of hard work taught me that. She needed her mummy though, so we spent the day chilling out. On Friday, she went to nursery and then came home for 20 minutes, where we both had absolutely no time to give her any attention, running around like idiots, preparing for work. Dropped her off at Frankies for the evening. My head was a mess. I knew, that she shouldn’t have to be looked after by anyone else but her parents when she’s poorly, no matter how incredible Frankie & Mitch are with her. She needed us. She saw us for less than an hour. She is only 10 months old. I felt ashamed, guilty and sad. I spoke to work, asked for today off as well. They have been incredibly understanding and supportive, which meant a great deal to me. We decided not to go longer than half a day where she doesn’t see one of us. I know, that in years to come, I will regret not holding her a little bit longer, a little bit tighter. I will regret not giving her the time of day to play with her or let her climb all over me, because I have cleaning to do. Work will still be there in 10 years, the pile of cleaning will return tomorrow, regardless of how clean the house was the day before. But Theia will not be a baby anymore. She may not want me to hold her, kiss her chubby cheeks or roll around the floor. She will only be a baby for this short period of time and become a distant memory, once she starts independently exploring the world. I’m sad, but I’ll learn. I’ll learn to prioritise the most important people and things in life. I’m only a kiddo myself, forever seeking guidance and reassurance. One day, I will grow into a woman my daughter will be proud of and will willingly look up to. Let me learn, watch me grow. #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #10monthsold

[miss-sawczuk]

I had to force this little girlie to nap this afternoon, I needed to recharge so badly. I literally felt drained. And this is how happy she woke up! 😍 • • • • #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #normalizebreastfeeding #polishmum #bloggeruk #littleangel #parenthood_moments #babyblog #luckymama #documentyourdays #mumlife #dailyparenting #instamatki #clickinmoms #momswithcameras #8monthsold

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We had another busy day with our local Mumsies and their gorgeous babe’s. Theia has definitely got her eye on the little boy in our group who’s only a few days younger than her, although he did grab her hair a couple of times, she still gave him the eye 😉 nursery is sorted! Theia is booked in for a settling in session on Monday, which I don’t even think she needs, she is so chilled and loves to play. What does make me nervous, is that I know from my mum, how easily babies get ill from nursery, obviously that’s unavoidable being around other little ones! I’m just starting my job and have no idea how lenient they will be with sick days and really, I want to make the best impression. See, I’m a sucker for stressing out about something that hasn’t even happened. Me down to a T. I guess only time will tell, hopefully all this broccoli we’ve been munching on will give Theia a better immune system! If you have any tips on how to protect your little ones from colds as much as possible, let me know! • • • • #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #normalizebreastfeeding #polishmum #bloggeruk #littleangel #parenthood_moments #babyblog #luckymama #documentyourdays #mumlife #dailyparenting #instamatki #clickinmoms #momswithcameras #backtowork #momswhowork (at Portsmouth)

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Theia looked so adorable today, ready for her aunties party and I literally took close to zero photos because she was totally moody 🤦🏻‍♀️ when everybody came up to us, to say how incredibly happy and good she is, I kept repeating that actually she’s having a bad day, so they just looked at me like I’m a mad woman 😂 maybe, or most definitely, I am more lucky than I realise ❤️ #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #normalizebreastfeeding #polishmum #bloggeruk #littleangel #parenthood_moments #babyblog #luckymama #documentyourdays #mumlife #dailyparenting #instamatki #clickinmoms #momswithcameras #8monthsold

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We have had such a lovely day. Everything I needed since I transitioned from Wiks to Mumma Wiki. Today, I was an adult and a mum at the same time. A few months back, I met a lovely mum around my age, super friendly, chilled and just my cup of tea. This was a huge deal, as she became my first mumma friend & first Portsmouth friend. I was so closed up prior to meeting her, went through all sorts of stages of postnatal depression and one of them was feeling like don’t need anything or anyone. Soon, I became quite lonely and isolated. I have incredible best friends, but they’re not mums. We can’t talk nappies, sleep deprivation or baby puke, although we can talk about pretty much anything else. Blogging and posting on my Instagram became a nutcracker for me, as it cracked through my hard shell and I slowly started reaching out to humanity... I needed mums, more than I imagined I would. My lovely new friend and I, met up at a baby weigh in (8.15kg!!!) and some of her mum friends joined us. Then we went round her house for coffee, cake and gossip. All of them were lovely, bright, different but we were in a way all connected, due to motherhood. I had a blast. Theia had even more fun as she mingled with the babies. I can now say, that I am a content and a confident mum. I recommend it to all of you mamas, who struggle with loneliness. Put your foot in the door and get yourself out there! • • • • #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #fedisbest #polishmum #bloggeruk #littleangel #parenthood_moments #babyblog #luckymama #documentyourdays #mumlife #dailyparenting #instamatki #clickinmoms #momswithcameras #babyfriends #momfriends #friendship (at Portsmouth)

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So yesterday, as some of you may have seen, I’ve been bakin’ & cakin’ all day! I set myself a challenge to make Timmy a birthday cake of his choice and here it is! My actual first birthday bake! It’s a fudge cake, with vanilla mascarpone and a layer of salted caramel, with chocolate and caramel buttercream and loads more chocolate on top 😂 should come with a health warning! I am so happy with myself, I guess some skills never go away, but mature over time! When I worked in a restaurant, I dreaded a customer ordering a birthday cake, I avoided it at all cost! However, doing it out of the comfort of my home has been super relaxing and fun! Just wish I had a kitchen porter here, to tidy up all the mess! Pete, where are you?! 😭 if I was to change anything, I would make the writing smaller, unfortunately rookie error, made the hole too big and started writing before I checked. And less filling as one side is poking out a tad! But I’m happy with my first go! Can’t wait to eat this beauty! • • • • • • #mumblogger #pbloggers #joyfulmamas #dailyparenting #instamum #matkapolka #normalizebreastfeeding #polishmum #bloggeruk #littleangel #parenthood_moments #babyblog #luckymama #documentyourdays #mumlife #dailyparenting #instamatki #clickinmoms #momswithcameras #baking #birthdaycake #instabake #chocolatefudge (at Portsmouth)