#maxwelltheprotector

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If you love me, let me go If you love me, let me go Cause these words are nice and often leave scars The fear of falling apart And truth be told I never was yours The fear, the fear of falling apart Oh oh oh oh oh oh The fear of falling apart 

- This Is Gospel; Panic! at the Disco.

[caroline-argenthale]

-in which maxwell proceeds to pass out when he hears the news-

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OPENLY

You're like a damn martyr with the way that you just take everything on since coming back here. I don't know how you can do it, to be honest. It's just-- You seem to cope without actually coping, you just get on with it and I don't understand how you can act as though nothing's happened when everything has. I don't understand you. We're related but it feels, sometimes, like we're not in any way at all. I miss the ways things were. 

SECRETLY

I hate you. No, I-- I hated you. I hated you for so long and I didn't understand why you just left, without even saying goodbye. You just vanished and you didn't even bother to tell me! Nothing, you were just gone and I-- I hated you so much for it. I loathed you because you were meant to be there for me like Laura and you were just suddenly gone. How was I meant to deal with that? I couldn't deal with that.. You didn't even come back when the fire happened, you just acted as though it didn't concern you and stayed away and sometimes, I still hate you for that. I hate you for acting as though you're better than the rest of us and acting as though you went through everything that me and Laura did when you weren't even there. But when I told you that it was your fault that Laura died, I didn't mean it and I'm so sorry. I never meant it, I swear. I was just angry and confused and I wanted it all to stop but it just kept getting worse and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that I've done that you have to deal with.. I'm so sorry, Maxwell.