#may 17 2012

[r-anchh]

3 years ago today... Thankful I'll be able to spend the day with no plans, alone, hopefully sleeping through the entire thing.

[shewolfmedia]

Rammstein Round 2 (Being a broken Snow White in the pit @ the Honda Center 05/17/12)

Let me start off by saying: last night was the greatest night of my life, like ever.

I am so serious. Last night can't even compare to anything I've ever experienced before.

From beginning to end, I absolutely lost it. They played ALL of my favorite songs. Proud to say I went apeshit and almost broke my neck during Sehnsucht and Asche zu Asche because those two songs specifically were the first songs that I fell in love with when I was 10.  There wasn't a single moment of disappointment. They reached my expectations and beyond. The turning point of the concert where I realized just how truly amazing they are and what a huge impact their music has on me was when I teared up during Ohne Dich. I swear if they don't announce a tour 2013 this will be the death of me. My heart will break if I don't see them again... and again..

Everyone at the end of the show admired my broken arm and my survival. Don't fuck with a broken and dedicated Snow White! Shit was insane!

Their badass head-banging and marching in unison during Du Riechst So Gut and Links was INCREDIBLE. I teared up during Amerika too as I was in awe at the crowd singing “und vor Paris steht Mickey Mouse” in unison. Everything was perfect at that point.

And HOLY SHIT when they played Buck Dich! My reaction was a mix between disbelief and complete shock, it was unbelievable! When I saw Frau Schneider coming out I was just about ready to climb over the barricade. The concert was an overall emotional and sexual rollercoaster that no matter what I say it's impossible to describe.

The fact that Paul saw me in my Snow White costume and winked/waved at me was pure satisfaction. Frau Schneider couldn't have been more perfect. That and the sweet security guard protecting my broken arm was amazing. Head-banging dead center in front of Till left me speechless... and a brother who sure knows how to be the best and create happiness within a single envelope and a few concert tickets is just... inexplicable. My night was absolutely epic! Cheers to new friends and my deep state of unbelievable ecstasy and nostalgia. Rammstein forever!

*Annnnd let the post-amazing concert depression begin now..

[ddencarlobos]

17th

It’s the 17th of the month (yes, I wrote this on May 17, 2012 but our modem decided to collapse somehow so I still shamelessly write this via Microsoft Word thank you very much) and may I say that today wasn’t so healthy for me and my Mom. As you can all recall, our  dismal experience happened way back December 17th last year and I’m still thinking whether or not to write about it but maybe I will but I’m still gathering the best words to explain that bleak memory (that was one long sentence, LOL). Okay, where was I again? Oh yeah, I’m about to rant about what occurred today, May 17, 2012.

I started my morning right, well maybe Mom shook me off the bed with a startle since she heard the creaking sound of the bathroom door when I forgot to mention Louie was sleeping over with us, so I jumped off the bed in a pinch and gave me a healthy dose of orthostatic hypotension (you might wanna Google that just in case). Then we cooked breakfast and yada-yada-yada, I went to the mall to buy food and I bought a skipping rope as to trying my best to clear off the super extra pounds I gained overtime. I got home and felt giddy so I decided to use it and SNAP! The rope decided to commit suicide and it broke itself (maybe it was its way of saying I may have lesser chance of trimming down my weight). Can you say that was bad luck? I haven’t even started yet.

Thea and I went for a jog after a super stressful day. I went for about 5 rounds around Pelaez Sports Center and I decided to stop since my heart was banging against chest wall way too much than I could handle. I seriously need to trim down on vices too, it occurred to me it’s giving me a hard time worse than I thought.

So on my way home, I was walking towards my house and my feet decided to French kiss this huge rock that almost killed my nail. OUCH. I entered the house and Mom sat down looking all shocked or traumatized then I stared at her forehead because it decided to French kiss our granite sink counter too (emphasis on the granite since it’s a super hard kind of tile and I was thankful it didn’t crack after it made hard contact on my Mom’s hard head as she said so herself) which gave her an extra hump near her eye brow. So without any second thoughts, I decided to get meat from the freezer to relieve the inflammation when in fact we have stocked canned Coke on our fridge, it’s less terrifying compared to a chunk of pork belly I tried to put against her head. What was I thinking? She even mentioned she didn’t want to do anything about being Lady Gaga wearing meat as a form of clothing. We both laughed about it anyway.

All these occurrences happening on the same day may or may not be a coincidence but it just came to me that it all boiled down to the 17th of the month taboo. Okay, I have to stop ranting now. Dad just called in for some good news. I guess after a series of unfortunate events comes a blessing when you will least expect it. I have to continuously believe that theory since I’m a terrible pessimist at times. So maybe the point of this post is that life may try to put you as the funny joke when no one is laughing, it can be silly and painful but there always will be a good thing that will prevail by the end of that road. I learned to stop fretting about the series of more unfortunate events me and my family has been going through (trust me, we’ve been through a lot than just acts of clumsiness). Again, I need to stop now before this all turns into a school reflection paper of some sort. Teehee!

 PS: Today is the 18th of May and our internet connection turned on back on because our router resurrected on its own. Go figure.