it's incredible the ways someone can still touch your life in new ways even years after they're gone
you aren't even dead. you just acted like we were dead to you even though we were the last ones left defending you. even after all you did. after all we shared, and we had to disavow you
and to think i took for granted briefly what you gifted us, and let things get piled up and buried and am unearthing now, though digitally.
i saw what happened to you online. you posted about it. and now days later here i am finding the live rendition of ketto buried in a crate on a hard drive in a folder that was a backup of one of the drives you made for us originally. although it's funny that you said you had all of clozee's work because i didn't discover her 2012 (and best) album until long after you left.
I never heard the live version of ketto before. im listening to it now. another track i didnt discover until after. but an artist i have loved for years before. i dont think he remembers saying it to me the night of that fucked up party for hethy in the house you used to live in when i starting playing my mix, "do you get it now? it all comes back to drum and bass"
but he did
and it does
and i think i get it now