#maybe trigger

[ryebreads-the-name]

Help me

I don't want to sleep but I don't want to be awake.

[mechanizumu]

Other stuff I never posted. Maybe. I can't remember. All my posts have been buried by reblogs.

[churas]

they are healing /a little/ and i am trying my hardest not to pick at them

i wish i could wear short sleeve shirts since it is starting to get warm

[serendi-pitously]

Maybe trigger (I'm not good with deciding trigger warnings...)

Fucking urges fucking urges fucking urges...

Literally the only thought I've had since basically Saturday and maybe a bit beyond that is fucking relapse......... and today just didn't.... help....

...I just really want to..... and I KNOW it does no good and I KNOW it doesn't help and I KNOW it won't make me feel better but I'm so incredibly done I just can't........

[sadtulipfairy]

I keep saying i'm going to fast again/restrict but in all honesty, i'm not going too. No matter how long the thoughts stay and no matter how strong they are, I am not going too because

I want to have a good summer with all my friends seeing as i won't be seeing them properly after summer for a while as everyones going different places

Eating is normal, you need food in order to work as a normal human

Who gives a fuck about bones

I'm going to have my body for the rest of my life and i want a pretty long, good exciting life so if i just damage it now it's going to effect me more in the long run

If i can't learn to love it and treat it right how can i expect anybody else too love me or treat me right

[traitor-from-scepter-4]

[Ok. I give up. I am going to fucking rant now.]

ALL OF YOU ANONYMOUS PEOPLE SENDING BLOGS HATE ARE CUNTS THAT CAN ROT. I will not tell you to go die, because then I will be a hypocrite-which is not something I enjoy. But one thing I will tell you to do is: FUCKING STOP IT. Do you know how much pain you've caused? With a simple sentence. With three words. Go kill yourself. Yes, Those words. Do you know how many people have actually listened to idiots like you and actually killed themselves? Tons.

Some people have the ability to brush it off, while others don't. I happen to be one of the lucky ones who doesn't give a fuck what people say about me-you can send me hate all you want. But when you send it to my friends, especially my close friends, oh boy. You've done it now.

I can't make threats saying I will find you and make you pay-because that is unrealistic. What I can do though, is send all of those people you sent hate messages to a friendly message. One saying that they are loved and cared about and shouldn't listen to WHORES like you.

Fucking stop it. I do not care if you are jealous, or are just plain vindictive and want to watch people in pain. THEY DO NOT DESERVE YOUR HARSH AND CRUEL WORDS. Every single person you have sent a hate message to, whether it be go kill yourself or go die or perhaps even You're a fucking loser, and an attention seeker.  They are kind, lovely people. Unlike you. So stop it. Stop making people harm themselves, or making them believe they aren't loved when they actually are-or even worse. Do not make them commit suicide.

If you are reading this, you are probably one of my followers. And I have no doubt that you are lovely kind people who would never do such a thing. BUT IF YOU ARE ONE OF THE ANON HATE MESSENGERS, YOU DESERVE NOTHING. FOR ALL I CARE, YOU CAN STARVE IN TARTARUS OR GET EATEN BY A RAVENER DEMON.

To anyone out there who has gotten hate message, whether it be anonymous or not, or even somewhere else. Do not listen to those twats. I love you, and so do many other people.

Thank you, and goodbye. ]

[untitledshame]

i dont know what to do

im lost sorry

i can feel myself slipping back down

i cant do this

[untitledshame]

progress gone

today started out so well..

I needed Hannah time.

I miss Hannah. 

I don't think I'll be leaving the room again today.

I don't think I could bare it.