I've decided I have to pull back my audition for MD2020
At the 8th of November, when I uploaded my audition, I was in the middle of starting to panic in my real life. For those who have forgotten, or are unaware, I lost my internship in late summer due to my chronic tension headaches, which often resulted in me having to take too many sick days. As much as my boss liked me, and thought I was a great intern, she couldn't keep me hired for this reason.
Getting an internship in this particular education, as a dental tech, is difficult enough, but especially now that the education is changing. A lot of clinics just really don't want to have interns, which I understand. But it makes it so difficult for those who actually want to work in this field.
I had spent MONTHS trying to find a new place, with fuck-all results. I can't count how many places I visited, emailed, rang or so forth, with either the answer that they don't take in interns due to the education system changing or that they already have interns. I was mentally preparing myself to just not be able to continue this education. And, my way of dealing with it, was to throw myself at something else I love; editing.
So I made the audition, wanting to participate in MD once more, because I still just love this contest so much and this theme is one I've waited for for YEARS.
But then, just 3 weeks after I posted my audition, someone FINALLY messaged me back and wanted me as an intern. Said she was impressed by my resume, and asked me if I wanted to start right away. Guys, from one day to another I got a new internship. She contacted me Wednesday morning, we interviewed Friday and I was hired to start Monday.
It all went so fast and I threw myself into the work, re-studied the things I had already learned, rekindled me love for the profession and the work, and I'm just so happy with the new place which in so many ways is even better than the first clinic I worked at.
I've been there for 3 weeks now, just went on Christmas vacation, and now I've had to make my decision in terms of MD2020, something I had set my mind to do before Christmas. And I love this job, but it's so far away and I'm away from home from 7:30am to 6:30pm usually. It's such few hours to do much, and I've really searched my own feelings to check if I didn't just have the physical, but also mental energy to do the contest. I don't think I could pour as much time and love into it as the contest deserves. And so, I'm pulling back my audition and Rameses will be up for grabs, if anyone wants to audition with him. Hell, if it's allowed, you're welcome to use my story x'D
I'm sorry for this. I'm sorry for those who had been looking forward to see Rameses' story. And I'm so happy and grateful for those who loved it and gave me their support for the contest. It means the world to me. You'll still see new work from me. I just can't pour enough time, energy and love into this contest as it deserves. And there's been so many wonderfully creative and intriguing auditions that are by people who are so more worthy to be in the contest than I am, as I am now with a full time job.
As my final words, I will reveal to you the twist of this story! What REALLY happened between Rameses' father and the mermaid was...
none of them were the evil or good one.
Zaphnath-Paaneah upon discovering the mermaid went straight towards her in an attempt to capture her. The mermaid tried defending herself, but realized it was either her or him, and deliberately drowned him. Neither of them were innocent in their actions. THAT was gonna be my "big twist"; I knew most people would assume the mermaid hadn't harmed Zaphnath-Paaneah, but I also knew some might think that would be too obvious and that perhaps the mermaid was actually evil, kinda like my thumbnail suggests. But no, I wanted neither to be fully good or fully bad; they were living beings who acted on their instincts and that ended in death for one of them.
How your view either character is up to you; there's nothing wrong with blaming the mermaid nor blaming Zaphnath-Paaneah. If you believe one is more to blame than the other, you are fully entitled to do so. There's no wrong or right opinion on this :)
If you read this far, thank you so much. Happy holidays and happy new year <3
