#mech thoughts

[machinepsychosis]

Sentient mech is a very cool concept and I love it dearly but for me personally, I much prefer the idea of having an addiction to being in the mech, whether it be chemically enhanced or not, just the idea that life doesn't feel right walking on your organic legs, they aren't your legs, not your body, not without the metal, the mech is you, the adrenaline, the power, the gentle orders from your handler crackling through your outdated receiver, life without that feeling is wrong, incomplete, you crave the next mission, not because you want the fight, but because life outside of your metal flesh will never feel right anymore... And life without handlers praise, is a life with no purpose.

[writingbetweenchimealarms]

After playing enough AC:FA and even doing some pvp in which I finally won a match...

Disabled pilots hit even harder. Like something about being a mech pilot as a disability metaphor will forever latch on in my brain. Like pulling a win together by the skin of my teeth feeling my joints starting to lock and my heart rate start pushing unsafe levels it's got that rush for piloting that mech media portrays.

My ac in ACFA is called Hing Kast. Estonian for Soul Box or Breath Box. Depending on how you want to look at it, it's either a record of all the kills it has from the campaign and now the one kill from pvp. Or it's how it's my Lynx's coffin.

Thoughts are still muddled and messy it's hard to put ideas together beyond "disabled mech pilot" but the thoughts are there. The frame is a coffin, it's freedom, it's death of you and those around you, it's whatever you make of it.

Mech media feels like one of the few places disabled characters are allowed to exist

[vinecovered-mech]

it will never fail to amaze me how spitlip are just so gay that they managed to so deeply ingrain queerness into their musical about WW2 (where the only romance the plot harps on is hetero)

[mooniestarstruck]

mech pilot who sees its captain fall in battle.

mech pilot who can't let its team know about it.

mech pilot who climbs out of its own mech and into its former captain's.

mech pilot who has to take the neural load as it interfaces with a mech it has never set foot into.

mech pilot whose nose is bleeding, but can't stop moving now.

mech pilot who leads its team to victory as its captain's corpse slams against the insides of the cockpit.

mech pilot who can't take the neural load.

mech pilot who has won, who has led its teammates to safety.

mech pilot who dies a hero, by its captain's side.