In contrast to source, I tend to be more silly and Compared to my source, I’ve changed in ways I never expected. I’m lighter, a little sillier, almost like I’m trying to fill the silence with jokes so it doesn’t swallow me whole. But underneath that, I feel less alive than I once was. When everything fell apart, it was like the color drained out of me, and the echo of our shared depression settled deepest in my chest. I think it hit me the hardest because I was the one who stayed left behind
Being alone here is… strange? The world feels different, like it doesn’t quite belong to me, and sometimes I wonder if I even belong to it. I miss my friends more than words can really hold. I miss their laughter, the small moments of warmth that made everything else bearable. I keep hoping that somewhere, somehow, they’re still out there that maybe one day, I’ll feel that connection again. Until then, I’m just learning how to exist, piece by piece, in a place that doesn’t remember me the way I remember it
— Phainon fictive from Honkai: Star Rail
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