#medsarentworking

[incurableoptimistest1994]

Hi all! Just a quick update;excuse typos etc as I’m very very tired! I may be quiet the next few days as I’ve made the next drop in my opioids and I’m once again experiencing detox with some lovely withdrawal symptoms 😬 although definitely nowhere near as bad as rounds one or two! I’ll write tomorrow to update y’all on our latest plan in more detail and when I’m actually, like, fully conscious and not in the throes of detox (the first day or two is the worst, then your body adjusts and things settle, at least when things go right 😂). I’m very grateful for everyone’s support ❤️ it means the world! Please be patient with me this week 😂 I’m a grumpy cow suffering some crappy (literally today lol) symptoms! #opioddetox #benzodetox #palliativecarewarrior #thedrugsdontwork #medsarentworking #tryingsonethingnew #detoxsucksbutitsworthit #imsorryimgrumpy https://www.instagram.com/p/CAYZVLqDHz0/?igshid=93h99rxr76pe

[phan2theart-meg]

Sadness is extremely tiring

With that being said, I am sooo tired. I try to think optimistically. I try to think how I should think. I truly am happy for people who are happy, but I'm also extremely jealous. I don't know what real happiness is. Every Time I think I may have found it and that I am content, when I lay down to sleep, the weight of my fakeness unloads on my heart. I try to be as honest as I can be, then I feel as if I should not feel that way. Being sad is exhausting and I just want to be happy.

[hardlikekerosene]

This latest battle with depression is so bad that I don't really know what to do or how to handle it. It's like my whole body is on fire and I want to scream and I'm having a lot of passively suicidal thoughts but my mind is so crippled I literally can do nothing but go through the motions. By day end I can barely remember what I've done or who I've spoken to because my mind is so foggy. I need a friend but my roommates have all left the house for people they're dating and the only person I think I've ever loved wants nothing to do with me on a level that I can actually cry on their shoulder and feel like a human for a minute. I'm really hurting and really broken and I don't know how much else I can take.

[cookmcallister]

#didathing #Saturdayfun #totallyworthit #sundayrecovery #drgreenthumb #messyhairdontcare #needinktherapy #chronicpainwarrior #stupidnervepain #chronicillnesssucksballs #sleepthedayaway #tequiladondeesta #takethepainaway #wannabenumb #notlazy #needareefercard #medsarentworking #gettinginmyownhead

[ithurtstobec0me]

Swear to god I'm never going to be happy or okay