In quiet moments, I wonder sometimes if I've chosen a path that is wise for me. Sure, the idea of practicing medicine probably sounds bright and exciting to anyone with little practical clinical experience. How will I handle long days, endless paperwork, basic assessments, problem patients, conflict and social politics along the way? How will I keep my heart in what I do? How will I recharge myself so I can best serve the folks who are counting on me?
I recently worked dinnertime at a shelter. Food service positions were filled, so I volunteered for dish pit. I thanked folks for bringing me their trays, my grin and giggles broadening as the pit got busier. I joked with folks, cheered kiddos who tossed their own silverware into the bin, wished friendly faces a lovely evening, and tried my best to show warmth, gratitude, and appreciation toward the folks who seemed to feel grim. When dinner was finished, I scrubbed tables and chairs and swept the entire dining room, trying my best to leave a clean and welcoming space that felt more inviting for the next meal.
I was reminded of how much I genuinely adore working in service. I love the chance to brighten someone's day, and my greatest reward is to see folks feel genuinely appreciated and respected. My favorite jobs have been in the service sector, and I tend to thrive in the busiest and most demanding situations. Winter holiday mall retail felt like licking a battery in the best way. I served hundreds, possibly thousands of customers in a shift. It felt like a dance to me, full of magic and mischief, and every time someone grinned or giggled with me, I felt recharged. When someone walked in sour and left feeling satisfied, I was triumphant. Especially when folks at renfaire remarked that I had become part of their family memories, I felt my spirit sing with gratitude.
When I reflect on this, I'm less anxious about the future. I have no doubt that some things may get me down, but I anticipate that recharging my spirit in service of others may be my key to avoiding burnout. I will keep this in mind, and continuously seek out ways to honor others in my work.