#melissa rambles

[tcnysncrk]

I’m not trying to throw myself a pity party or beg for attention while brining attention towards negativity, but I just got an influx (prob all the same person bc it was anonymous) of like 15 or so asks in my inbox of someone just being really mean towards me and highly critical of my work (specially the newer stuff).

And I’ve been around the block and I should be able to just let this roll off my back but (and idk if it caught me at a bad time today or if the things that were being said just kind of doubled down on my own criticism and insecurities about this project) but it really affected me this time around.

I’m so appreciative of all of the great and wonderful comments people leave me, but I am Robby in that damn peds room only recounting the lives I couldn’t save and then breaking down when there are probably hundreds of lives he did save. I just need a Dennis or a Jack to just place their forehead on my shoulder and just be in the moment with me for a second.

Anyway, that just took a lot out of me and I did cry a little about it

[corrodedhawkins]

Oh god I’m so soft. I’m thinking about Eddie in the snow. There’s no way he’s wearing a winter coat he probably layers up and puts a hoodie under the leather jacket and vest 🥹

[canonicallytired]

Not to get all sappy and shit but this was actually kind of my year? I got a great job and met a ton of friends from the ST fandom ❤️

[what-the-honk]

okay but the end really caught me off guard-

[kushexi]

I think about that one anon who told me my art made them fall in love with several fandoms almost every day qslkjkd i dont know who you are, but your message still makes me smile!! Thank you so much!! 

[classicdaisycalico]

"Do I look like I need YOUR power?"

[emeraldcas]

So, I'm finally changing the url I've had since 2012! It's a big day, queue the drumroll!

kickedinthedaddypills - - - -> emeraldcas

tagging some mutuals below. reblogs to signal boost would be amazing! 💖😊

@huckleberry-cas @spn-in-2021 @withclawsandsympathy @zorelle @maggiii @hazel-eyed-bi @comb-thee-asbestos @https-castiel @on-maars @fezfanatic @stark-park @curlsandyelling @astudyinfreewill @bluishorange @buttstacle @jellydeans @autisticraptor @god-of-dramatic-death-scenes @floral-cas @you-cant-spell-subtext-without @casandhumanity @transdeantruther @boringlibrarianthoughts @aneternalfangirl

[stonedsable]

Alot of people in my dash lately are saying their going to leave and it makes me sad. Wolfstar fandom isn't that bad is it they make it seem bad. Also I',m asking you and not them because their always cut and dry on what is ecceptable for harry potter fans and what isn't and I love Harry Potter and it makes me feel bad that they are always hating on it

hmmm okay so...

you probably haven't been around my blog long enough to know that i've already left once before. i started this blog 5 years ago, then left for 3 years, then came back because the pandemic gave me wayyyyy too much freetime.

everyone is allowed to make their own choices as to what is best for them. nobody owes you or anyone else an explanation of why they are or aren't staying in the fandom. appreciate the fact that the blogs you like are even giving you warning that they will be leaving because they don't have to do that. they could just up and disappear one day with no notice. it happens. its a harry potter blog in 2021.

i'm not trying to be rude or hurt your feelings, i'm just being realistic.

also the people i follow who have talked about leaving have written detailed posts about why harry potter is problematic. i've reblogged plenty of them. i don't think any of them are written to make you feel bad about liking harry potter, they're just trying to give you a perspective you may not have seen before. it's good to hear opinions opposite of your own and make educated decisions on what you're supporting.