When are you coming home?" And her reply was always "Soon." Then one day the answer became "Next month." and I swear I almost went crazy It was nothing but the simple fact of time keeping me away from my big ass baby I felt like nothing could bring me down but my happiness was too hasty Everything came crashing down like a 50 foot tsunami when life got too wavy There was a car bomb. There were surgeries. There was skipping prom. And wedding anniversaries. There were medically induced comas and long nights on hospital sofas Sad gazes into the crowd while accepting diplomas and even heart stopping scares of you having possible fatal lymphomas... When you woke up, there was news of permanent paralysis from the waist down... You screamed. A chilling blood curdling scream as you tried moving your legs up and down if you could move your legs I'm sure you would kick for euthanasia like a dog to be put down They said no, so you took things into your own hands, or a razor into your own hand and repeatedly cut up and down. It didn't work so you took a couple pills and dropped those shits down. Watching you trying to kill yourself was killing me and I refused to bury you, so I tried to beat you to it... Locked myself in my room and drank myself into oblivion, drowning in the dark brown fluid Acetaminophen, omprazole and Percocet, ibuprofen, aspirin even a couple Zans were included. Threw them all back and sat quietly as I could feel my body cry out at being polluted, I probably never woken up if I had picked a spot that was more secluded So when you got the call saying I tried to end it the phone slipped from your hand and in that wheelchair you cried. Cried long and cried hard, before deciding that you were going to fight for both of our lives, to try and give me hope back that you could survive Watch me graduate college, be my maid of honor if I ever decide to choose a bride Live to see my beautiful baby girls, give them somebody to look up to, and be their guide So months later watching you walk across the room on your own legs I almost cried cause my Marine came through, I was overflowing with pride Smile wide as you turn and snicker at me with beads of sweat on your forehead from the long strides and to everyone else you probably looked tired and fried but you did it, and the experience is something I could never describe. But now you're back under and all I do is wonder, if you have the ability to cheat death two times or has God finally pulled your number? I'm proud of all those who have served and all of those who do Shoot, I'm even thinking about fighting for the red white and blue But as you lie comatose with complications from surgery and infection to tell you the truth I don't give a damn about this country or my freedom if it means I lose you.
