#memoriesissue

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hey yo, technoblade back at it again with a "well that's wild" moment of just how,,,, chill the whole dsmp was. dream was unfortunately still like That but we all luckily had communication skill and enough common sense to realize the guy manipulating a ton of minors was bad news, me and phil were qpps (aroace rights baybe!) we ran off into snowy hell because government was a ton of cringe ass losers that tried to murder me for thinking government was a ton of cringe ass losers (perma death wasn't really a thing though) philza went and saw ranboo and went "new son" and me and charlie were just like bros but without all that cringe family shit. things were just super chill with a ton of my sitting in our moderate to mildly frozen pond on a floatie just having naps. the floating was shaped like a giant sheep that wilbur went and painted blue the one time he visited (yes wilbur not ghostbur, wilbur just went and got therapy) #🦂🩸

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I like how my sketchbook is basically me daydreaming about the mems I have of my boyfriend

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haha watch this *constantly thinks about the people who loved me back then as escapism to not think about the horrible crushing loneliness irl but it actually makes it worse because they're not there super epically*

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Long story short: my partner jokingly "kins" a character, projects heavily on them and emulates them wherever possible. I can't help wondering if they have memories. We wouldn't be canonmates or anything, I don't have any kintypes from the source, but... dang. That'd be cool. (I'd also feel hella sorry for them because that is trauma galore) Maybe I'll get them a gift that could jog something, see if they talk about it. If not, they'll be very happy to have fan merch.

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idk hearing ppl talk abt me and elizabeth like we’re the same person is kinda weird?? like. I’m Not Elizabeth. i think she fully possessed me by fnaf6 bc that’s where my memories end but me? i’m just a funny little clown robot <3

anyways, elizabeth, if you’re out there? i’m sorry. you didn’t deserve to die and i wish i could’ve saved you but there wasn’t anything i could do to stop it. and michael i’m uh. sorry abt the whole skinsuit thing. and william, why would you make me that way? like i get that you didn’t MEAN to kill elizabeth but you DID make me to kill kids and if your excuse is “well i didn’t mean to kill MY kid” then buddy the bar is on the fucking floor

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I feel so guilty all the time, but I have such a hard time actually remembering why. I mean, I know why! I did awful things when I was alive! But if I think about it too hard my head hurts and I get so tired and I just wish I could remember better, but I just feel guilty all the time without always knowing why.

I’m sorry for what I did. All of it, even the bits I can’t remember. I’m so, so sorry.

- Ghostbur 🔷

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Do. Do I have *two* Cassidy canons. Is *that* where my possibly-Security-Breach-memories have been coming from. Cause I feel like, like I remember being Cassidy but like. how most people see them? The little girl with black hair who was murdered by William.... I don't know if these are really memories or if it's just a fleeting feeling. I feel like what I "remember" is too blurry, too.. too distant, too unreal to be a memory. I don't know what I'd classify it as though. - Golden Freddy (#💀🐻💛)

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I’m still so mad that the kinmem that’s most relevant to how I interact with my source’s fandom is the one about my glasses. It’s such a small thing, why is it so important to me!!