#mental asks

[hell-is-a-teenage-girll]

Hi I just wanted to say that I really like how you’re open about being autistic and having having chronic pain and that means a lot to me as someone who’s constantly insecure about that

I am really glad it helps people!

it’s just because I found out that accepting helps you alot in life.

because being angry or sad the entire time will not change the fact that you either are autistic or chronically ill. (or other mental issues for that case and other diseases). Why spend an eternity being upset if it will just make my time that I have worse. And if I can make others feel at least a bit more comfortable, I’d love too.

trust me I am still very insecure and carry alot of shame and guilt (mainly for being disabled but not visibly disabled tho) but I choose to surround myself with people who make me feel better and make me forget it at times, or make me feel protected while not in an overly protected way either.

So you are very welcome and you are perfectly abnormally normal! 

(I love people who aren’t “normal” so it’s a compliment)  

[hell-is-a-teenage-girll]

does you brain ever come up with worst case scenarios? mine does and I just want it out

I think everyone wants those thoughts gone.

but yes it happens, but then I calm myself down with confronting myself that it is just my mind, I know it does it, and whenever I start to do it, I’ll tell myself like, “here I go again ffs” but I calm myself down with also saying if it happens, it will but of all the times it happens, out of how many times did anything happen like my mind tried to make me believe.

Alot less then when it does. so that’s how I deal with it

[hell-is-a-teenage-girll]

21%

It depends. I'm incredibly critical of myself and have been battling on and off with eating disorders so I don't know if I'm Truly ever happy with it. But that's okay too

[antidepresans-moved]

could I ask why in your about it says "don't follow if you're a cis male"? I'm just wondering

ah, it’s trauma related. cis men usually make me very uncomfortable, i don’t like to talk about it, sorry,,,

[antidepresans-moved]

what does ip mean lol

ip basically means “interest person”, it’s somewhat similar to the fp (favourite person) of people with bpd? not completely though.

basically: since i have szpd, i don’t really.. enjoy.. talking and being around people or similar and usually get bored of them real fast. my ip is the only person that’s.. different to me. he’s always interesting. he means a lot to me. i actually care about him. of course my emotions are still dull/flattened due to my personality disorder but he’s special to me.