I’m in a relationship with a guy for a long time and we were so comfortable with each other. yes we are still in love (but I’m not sure if I would call it as love, or maybe they are just, egos). so we went on an argument just now, it started when I asked him something simple like, who are you going to CB with tomorrow? and he said: “my group”. I was not satisfied with the answer, and you know, being a woman, you want everything to be specific. I asked him thrice and he called me stupid and dumb and that the answer was right there all along. well, he was with me for five years and still didn’t get my mind. he knows I overthink and still do that. I mean, either answering my questions vaguely or ignoring me and go on chatting away as to make me forgot about my questions. He was a pretty smart person, he lied to me over and over. being a woman is great tho, you have that instinct that tells if he was telling the truth or not. caught him over and over again on social media chasing after young girls who are desperate for attention. yep it hurts so good that I decided to slit my left legs using a scarf pin, sharp enough to bleed and leave scars. so I was saying, he was aggressive and egomaniac. you cannot simply say something that could trigger his mind or else he would go on a mental breakdown. sometimes I wonder if I wanted to marry this kind of guy, of course, the answer is no. but the truth is, he is only abusive when we are texting. when we are one to one, he was a sleepyhead and funny. at the moment I blocked him so I don’t have to read and receive those abusive messages from him. seriously, I was about to cry, but then I held my head up and clicked that Block button. I will unblock him tomorrow just in case he was still angry at me now. usually the storm would go after hours. I don’t mind him going out and doing stuff behind my back because sooner or later, I will find out anyway so it is not my problem. but please, if anyone knows how to treat and date or even better, change his attitude, please do let me know, hit me up. I don’t want to find someone new because it was exhausting and it is so hard to find someone who genuinely likes you for who you are. thank you for reading. good night!
