What’s bothering me now...
Nowhere is safe anymore, especially in this country. It like everything is rolling back to stone ages or close to it. It's a total mess.
I worry for our Main Host, she'll rant then cry because she no longer feel safe living this whatever this land is now. That she'll become even more paranoid wherever she goes now. -he sighs upset- hell, our Main Host has been through hell growing up, abused in every way/ every type of, since probably at aged 3. She don't need more. She has nightmares of it. Yes she doesn't voice it because who would believe her, the idiot? He shuts her down and completely invalidates her each time she tries to talk about it. Living in countryside where no one believes in the disorder she has. So she suffers in silence, only we, Alters know how hard she's struggling to stay in the Present timeline than back then. Why she drifts back into 2001 to 2003, because everything was fine, peaceful for her. Because she had her friends, her guild, her online family of misfit teenagers across the country.
That was about 17 years ago since then and now currently she feels like she doesn't belong anywhere anymore.
Now the healthcare she gets from the state, Medicaid is being threaten to be cut off of their funds, her monthly income? That's being threaten too. Basically meaning if both gets cut badly and have zero funds, she wont get any help in health and she wont have any money to make it through. Yea this country sucks. Because of the biggest idiot of a pres, is completely destorying everything. Some may not care but I have to say once Medicaid and Social Security Income gets booted, dont be crying that you cant get anything cause I say, told you so. Told you long ago that they be cut off but you said you dont care much of was happening and believed that it wont affect you. Well it did, didn't it?
Besides that part of my rant, going to try save our money now on, cause who knows what will happen to SSI in a few months from now. Just wish that this whole thing with the idiot pres was nothing but a dream but its not, its reality. Yea, the Main Host can't get any thearpy for her DID out here, they may treat her Major Depression Disorder but that's all they can do. She already relapsed so much, our body has scars, new ones. Because of stress, shes completely almost in distress always. Idiot gaslights her daily, she can't focus anymore but gaming on the PC. She forgets to do what she has planned, she's tired all the time. She has lost interest in lots of things.
We, Alters are trying to do our best to help her, to take over when need to, which is probably more often now than before. Its too stressful I guess but we will do our best to help our Main Host out.
