I hate getting mushy but I'm a sensitive soul, what can I say
I've always dreamed of making content for the masses, but for both my enjoyment and others' entertainment. I'm really proud of myself for taking the first steps of expanding myself and skills after so long.
Is my first video good? No. An actual trash fire mostly. and that's ok! this is a whole new avenue I'm walking down. and blah blah you gotta be bad to get good. I already see 4 mistakes 2 minutes in while watching the uploaded version..... But I've learned so much already, and next time I'm hitting faster and stronger.
I'm really just glad to have even finished the video though because I got so demotivated every time a minor inconvenience came around. Almost burnt myself out without even stepping foot out the door! I feel a big weight lifted off my chest, while another one is carried.
Making that video though, and watching others' work while working on it has helped me kind of define what I really want to steer my content towards, the things I enjoy and the things I hate. I know content especially on YouTube has gone downhill and while I don't want to be revolutionary in fixing my goal is for my content to be worthwhile (quality and all). I don't care much about the stats, if at least one person enjoys that's good for me :)
So, there's my little 1 AM rant. I love doing what I do, and thank you if you do too!